Okay, so for my whole life I have had some very strict Jehovah’s Witness parents, and lived under strict Jehovah’s Witness routine with, up until 3 years ago, strictly Christian friends. After that point I made some non-Christian friends at work but their world still seemed alien to me.
Recently I have taken some radical life changes mostly revolving around renouncing my faith in response to certain events which made God impossible for me to believe in and moving out entirely on my own (better put, “I would rather you be dead than atheist”). I have made a lot of good friends and surprisingly I have a lot of interesting things to talk about and even more surprisingly people don’t seem to find me boring or dull to be around.
It’s a whole new world, along with really listening to good music, watching TV, drinking a drop of alcohol or doing drugs, I now have women, sex and relationships available as options.
But here’s the catch. The last time I kissed a girl I was 8 which I don’t really think counts. Never been on a date or any of that fun stuff, and I think women probably find that quite intimidating, which is understandable. It’s not that I am nervous to ask, I asked one person, who said yes,” Until I actually mentioned I had never been on a date before when she asked and she said “I am a bit of a maneater, I don’t really want to put you through what I can be like.” Further discussion basically revealed that she suffers from Borderline Personality Disorder and didn’t want me to get attached to her.
Emotional overinvestment isn’t something I am at risk of.
Also one person asked me, but uh, she’s married.
It’s not that I am nervous to go. Quite the opposite in fact, the prospect is exciting. I suppose my main concern is for the other person but I am most certainly eager to try. It’s strange though, a completely inexperienced girl would be very offputting to me, it’d be the same as taking 2 children, giving them a pile of bricks and mortar and telling them to build a house. What I need is someone far more… seasoned, but again, I imagine someone like this would like a guy who has had girlfriends before. But hearing from most the women in my group what an arse their boyfriend is, competition isn’t too strong. Who knows.
One of my friends jokingly told me to hire an escort. I don’t think I would feel right paying for my first date, much as I appreciated the suggestion.
Also, my 21st Birthday is coming up. The very first birthday I would ever have celebrated! Fancy that…
I am not even completely sure what it is I am asking, just, any tips for someone who is new to life? And if you, as a sociable well adjusted person could do it all again, what mistakes would you avoid making twice?
