Hey peeps,
I thought as this site has educated me i would make a small effort and write a report of my experience of this combination.
So a little background. I am mostly a novice in the rc scene. I have found in recent years that its hard to get good quality k for after parties. I’m sure most of you know, but best not to leave things out: mdma counteracts the dissociative effect of k, and i find this a much more enjoyable than doing k on its own which seems much more turbulent. I’m not a k head at all, i’ve only done it a handful of times and i don’t actually think of it as a great drug, i just wanted a trippy kick at after parties and i gave up smoking and used to find the most enjoyable time to smoke weed was after a night of mdma, so i was now looking to find a good trippy drug to replace the smoke. So after some research, i found mxe, that is supposedly similar to k. I saw some nice reviews so thought i’d order some and give it a whirl.
I had a variety of coincidences that i think made my trip a bit risky. Firstly i found mxe only days before a night out and so didn’t have a chance to test it on its own. 2nd i ordered some scales which didn’t arrive. 3rd i ordered a fair amount, thinking i would have the scales. 4th i couldn’t find any information about this combo and only knew mxe should work in some vaguely similar way to k. 5th by the time of dosing my eyesight was very blurred. The one good thing i decided to do was not mess around with it too much while i was out and wait till i got home alone to try it properly.
So i started at 11am. I snorted a line that i guessed was 50 mg, but really it could have been anything between 30 – 100mg, i’m really not sure. I had a shower as i’d read it takes a while to come up, but found mid-way through the shower i was feeling disorientation so hurrayed out. It felt very mild in this first hour but noticeable and my vision was becoming more distorted. Between 1-1.5 hours in the come up really picked up pace and it felt really warm and nice i was becoming very happy and tranquil and a feeling of bliss came over me in body and mind. I could already feel that this would be much more enjoyable than mdma and k. Surprisingly i began to feel heightened awareness and real clarity of thought which continued to grow and grow.
At 2 hours in i felt like i had gone into a full spiritual awakening and i was in dreamland with extra bliss. I was starting to feel a strong detachment from normal thought and felt like unnecessary menial parts of my brain were relaxing and making way for more spiritual entry. I won’t go too much into the personal aspect of this, but i felt like i could plainly see the last 10 years of my life before me and felt many feelings. I felt like everything was ok and actually i was doing really well in life and all i could think was how lucky i was for so many things. This continued to go deeper and deeper and i felt i was unravelling the foundations of my consciousness and really understanding myself and feeling total contentment with who i was (which is something i have found difficult in life). Many more thoughts continued like this that i’ll not bore you with. I also noticed a strong sexual feeling and (this may sound strange) really noticed how attractive i was (after a night of clubbing lol). I remember my words for describing this experience at this point were ‘perfection’ and ‘beauty.’ At about 3 hours in i had been entranced in various thought patterns but felt like i could relax a bit now having covered many topics and i decided to not think so much. As i did this a sense of relaxation descended and i felt i had gone past the peak and would be surely getting ready for bed soon.
At 3.5 hours in i realised my imagined stopping point was wrong and it was still getting stronger. I didn’t have so much to do and so passed the time relaxing in different positions and not doing a great deal. At 4 hours i realised that it had only been getting steadily stronger from the start and actually i had no idea when it would end and because of this i think, the spiritual awakening part definately finished and my focus became much more on the now, and observing wtf was going on. Disorientation had been increasing from the start and things looked really warped.
At 4.5 hours in i’m sure i would have felt quite worried if i had the capacity to. Somehow the bliss just remained, but i knew that without this i might even be freaking by now. I hoped the bliss would continue. At this point the trip had far far exceeded any experience that i had had before and my body felt completely weightless and i was severely disorientated and confused. I clumsily floated down the stairs and poured the weirdest glass of water. I started to think of the insanity of what i had done and the reckless way in which i had done it. I felt that the outcome of this was more down to chance and i felt really stupid. I was wondering if i had given myself brain damage or if i would even be normal again, although in the back of my mind i remembered that this feeling happened also when i took a heroic dose of mushrooms and i was normal again, so this relaxed me a bit. A strange thing was that i wasn’t actually worried. It was not something i was capable of feeling. Somehow i thought even if i died this could be a peaceful and spiritual experience but obviously not desirable.
At 5 hours in i remember thinking to myself ‘yeh mxe is like k in a similar way that sulphuric acid is similar to water’, and ‘i probably deserve to die and possibly be made an example of because of this’. I just sat hoping i would get a feeling of coming over the peak but still not having any inkling as to when. My new words for describing this were now ‘amazed’ and ‘horrified’ and ‘what the fuck have i done?!’
For the next hour and a half or so i just sat slumped in various positions, hugely thankful that the bliss had remained throughout, but feeling that this was completely artificial and my more natural feeling would surely be pure panic. I felt like crying but i didn’t have the capacity to do it. I just tried not to think a whole lot which was becoming easier actually as my head started to feel like a solid brick. I realised the dose i was after was probably about a quarter of what i had done.
In the end i never noticed the peak. I was sure i wouldn’t sleep but to my amazement, i just suddenly found myself waking up in a really weird position dripping with sweat. It was dark outside and i realised a lot of time had passed. My head was still a brick but i was back into the world of normal thought. A wave of many emotions came over me, i was genuinely surprised at how normal my thoughts were again, i was so so relieved and i started crying uncontrollably. It was 9pm.
So here i am writing this for you now at nearly 4.30 am. I feel really surprised at how quickly i have recovered already. I am fairly sure i’ve not damaged myself too much. I’d probably feel much more out of it if i’d been smoking weed all day.
Just to say a few more things about me so you can get a perspective for yourself: I’m not your typical wreckhead. I generally don’t take drugs very often except parties sometimes. The only true hallucinogen i’ve taken is mushrooms which i did do quite a lot while it was legal. Also k a few times. I am generally an easy going person in life, but compared to friends i am a bit soft, and have freaked out on mushrooms and k. If you are more experienced/brave then this experience might be fine for you.
I would strongly recommend caution if using this drug and/or this combination. Get yourself some accurate scales and don’t be a hero. This stuff is so much more intense than i expected and dosage is very low. My perspective is that this combination is much more enjoyable, rewarding and enlightening than mdma + k (k is not enlightening imo). Also i feel like, although i am ok now, that this stuff will severely damage your brain if due respect is not given.
peace
m
