Salvia, fucking horrible experience, filled with confusion extreme paranoia the most terrifying Deja Vu feeling of all time.
Done it properly where I lost myself twice… granted I wasn’t in the clearest of minds but most of my friends had the same experiences sober.
First time, age 16. I’d been up all night on Ketamine (when it used to proper trip me out), I believe I took some pills when they were cheap and full of MDMA, Nitrous, Cannabis in a bong and probably others I’ve forgotten, was quite some time ago.
It got to around 1pm the next day and I’d fallen asleep for 30 mins when my friend turned up from the session we were on with a brutal bong which we were all experienced in smoking (we could smoke them hard and hold it for long like pros if you’d like to put it that way) and 10x Salvia. One thing before I start sleep deprivation is the way to make a Psychedelic experience INCREDIBLY INCREDIBLY INCREDIBLY more potent, but I do warn you sleep is very important to feeling good so these sleep deprived experiences can be very difficult experiences (Believe me the more difficult bad psychedelic experiences stick with you more, you learn a lot more).
I smoked a fat rip of 10x just after waking up from a small sleep… The most intense vivid horrific experience came next, I left the world and was in a completely empty white space with my friends head with a stick man body flicking around staring deep into my soul in an evil way saying ‘I am the Devil and you’re stuck here forever’ But mentally not audio. An intense feeling of Deja Vu was with me like I’d done something incredibly wrong and It all made sense and I was to suffer for an eternity in this hell. I tried to escape from the ‘friends face, devil stick man’ and as I tried to go right to get away (I had no body at all at the time I was completely out of this world) all that happened was an infinite image of the same person coming over and over and over and over.
At this point is where I believe I tried to run out of my room (I used to have a third floor room) and the devil character held me back to stop me from going downstairs in that state and whatever other crazy things I could have potentially done.
I came out of it… A cloud of my sight just came back to me from all angles and I was at the other end of the room from where I was sitting which was freaky and ended pretty suddenly.
I felt twisted, brain raped and fucking pissed off. One friend was looking at me smiling in a sort of twatish way and I flipped the fuck out telling him it’s not fucking funny at all!! (In my mind I’d just been in hell and was never escaping).
30 mins later I felt great, I wasn’t in hell, I just had the most intense experience of my life and was so happy to be alive and in reality. No regrets.
Part 2 next post.
