Black out drunk nearly every time.....how do you invoke moderation?!

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September 8, 2015 at 2:20 pm

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Hannimal

@hannimal

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Aternoon!

Cut a long story short,whenever (well, a good 80% of the time) I drink,which has been a lot less recently I end up going so extreme I black out and have these crazy nights.

In theory it sounds funny,mates call me a legend say they love my drinking stories but I’m starting to feel like I could be pretty close to seriously hurting myself soon. It’s like even my crazier friends have limits and boundaries I just have literally none when it comes to anything,mbooze,drugs, sex.

I don’t want to stop drinking but I do want to moderate what I consume,I just don’t seem to have the willpower. It’s like one drink becomes 2 which becomes three which becomes shots etc. Add to the fact I have a very addictive personality I end up going on these drug binges of coke and Mandy when I get pissed and nights regularly end up at running costs of 200 – 300 quid a time. I did have issues with cocaine a couple of years ago but got over that by stopping completely which was so hard but I feel with the booze that’s creeping back into my life too.

Its started coming to a head recently when I was so drunk I spent 200 on class as and couldn’t remember even buying them, and then this weekend went on a date with a guy remember nothing half way through until we are back at mine doing lines 🙁 I’ve put off blokes on dates by being so crazy,I’ve missed important friends bdays wtc coz I’ve been too hungover and I just hate the fact I can’t control myself.

mini vent there,apologies but I’m just upset I can’t seem to stop,I guess what I’d be intrigued in is to what extent others have experienced these issues and how you’ve managed it? I struggle to go out and not drink but at same time I don’t want to become a recluse!

Thanks guys.
September 8, 2015 at 3:02 pm

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smokemary

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I’d say just smoke weed 🙂 I wouldn’t have the knowledge to help you cut drinking as I don’t do it as much and my advice would be terrible lol like why not change your drink and aviod shots? Or like me when I got to drunk just danced to sweat it all out lol
September 9, 2015 at 2:58 am

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Digital Buddha

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the old AA tactic is to drink just beer, harder to go full tilt that way
September 9, 2015 at 8:50 am

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tryptameanie

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Hey bud, I feel your pain. Alcohol is the most damaging, controlling and addicting substance I’ve ever used. Alcohols most prevalent effect is loss of inhibition, the very thing that would help you say no to another drink or to using harder drugs which you would normally refrain from if sober.

My problems with alcohol lasted years, I tried AA (useless excuse for religion and as effective as nothing but willpower) which helps some but not most (around 15% success rate), willpower alone but I could not stop no matter what. I had to get to a point that life was so worthless I chose death or help. Whacked a fuckon of temazepam inside me and went to A&E and said either get me help or I’ll walk out of here and die, same day I was on an inpatient detox.

The taking temazepam bit sounds extremem but sadly that’s the way you gotta go about it if you want help then, without showing how desperate I was in that way they may well have sent me away to see an addictions service and may have got some help a few months/years later.

I’d inended to wrute more but gotta go out, will finish later. For now chin up bud, you aren’t alone and you can get better :).
October 19, 2015 at 11:37 pm

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Hannimal

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It came to a head. Ended up getting pretty high on Mandy on night at home. Slipped in bathroom. Fractured my skull. Now off work for next few weeks.

Feel like this is a turning point in my life. Better be,late 20s now. If it isn’t could be dead by the time I’m 35 if this keeps going!
October 20, 2015 at 1:57 am

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Digital Buddha

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get well soon, but hopefully you stop the spiral
October 20, 2015 at 10:16 am

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tryptameanie

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Hey sorry to hear that mate, hope you get well soon and thingsthings start improving for you.
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