Time for a summary. It’s been three months now, and I’ve been dosing at least twice or three times a week, other than one week when I was ill with a sore throat and cold.
Key purposes for trying: to help me deal with my day to day work project (i.e. working on the project and with people); to see if I can tap into my creative ability; to help with sports
Dosage
Assuming the blotter ug is correct, I always took either 15ug of the lsd or 25ug of 1p; always taken in the morning after a small breakfast, rested under tongue for around 45-60 mins.
Effects
Felt after 30 mins with lsd, 60 with the 1p (the experience with both is more or less the same)
Positive
Feel more alert, slight ‘edge’, able to concentrate, way more receptive when communicating with people, focused on the person and not so distracted, most of the time able to get on with work and get things done, an element of ‘realness’ about my surroundings and self perception. I dislike the comparison with coffee – more similar would be the ‘kick’ an energy drink gives, but dosing lasts much longer. Very alert to what’s happening around me. Definitely felt my creative side express itself, even if only within myself – e.g. creating poems or songs, thoughts and reflections on people close to me.
Whenever the dose ‘felt right’ I would feel good in myself. However, these times were also when I had a good day, or was generally feeling great. The feeling was heightened, I felt it more than I would normally.
Neutral
Feel weird occasionally, which I would not equate as paranoia, but an ‘unreal’ feeling. Feel self-conscious at times. Always far more sexually aware: e.g. more conscious of feeling attracted to the opposite sex, and could just feel sexual vibes from women more than usual.
Negative
Nothing was at all overtly bad, but occasionally I did feel myself hindered when faced with situations that were emotionally difficult. When that happened there was a tendency to dwell endlessly, or drive myself obsessively to resolve a task, which is partly because of my personality. However, there were times when I would react creatively rather than enter a spiral I felt I could not escape. Sometimes I did feel ‘hyper’ energetic and alert.
There main thing not so great: sleep, which is harder to come as my mind is still alert and awake even 14 hours later. Often led to very late nights. However, once again that is my personality, I generally find sleeping at night hard coming.
Other observations
– There was rarely any consistency. I thought I was struggling to get the dose right, expecting the same or similar experiences, but after 3 months that’s plainly not the case. The consistency is in the things mentioned above: being more alert, more self conscious, creative but also obsessive, weird, energetic, and so on. How the day ultimately panned out wasn’t all down to microdosing: what I felt and what I experienced would have happened anyway, but were somewhat ‘sharper’ or more pronounced than they might have been otherwise. Is that a good or bad thing? It’s just how it is.
– Taking other substances:
One weekend (two days after microdosing) I had some awesome mdma = the best ever, had an incredible time on that with a female friend, loads of hot sex and conversations about sex and relationships. The day after, no substances, the next day I took the usual microdose and had the absolute worse downer I’ve ever felt after mdma. It lasted three days and I felt deathly and depressed. My friend did too, so it was definitely the mdma comedown, but in my case I don’t think the microdose helped. I never thought that depression was ever going to end. I have since taken a lower dose of ‘E’ and the downer was not too bad, but I stayed off microdosing for an extra day. Not sure if there’s any relation there.
– 1p & lsd differences? I’ve taken two hits of the full 1p in between microdoses and had an interesting trip – nothing the same as the higher hits I’ve had, but fun nevertheless.
There IS a slight difference between the 1p and lsd: the 1p is definitely ‘milder’ in effects, the lsd ‘sharper’…but not always.
– Surprising to note: an unexpected benefit comes from the day or two afterward. I feel calmer, whatever the situation, more reflective, less likely to ‘spiral’ into obsessive thoughts, and mildly more creative and eager to solve any problems that arise in life or work. In other words, I feel less depressed when microdosing than when not. I became conscious of this state of mind when I went without microdosing for a week due to having been ill, I could feel myself becoming more irritable with things and life, touchy, less reflective, and my thoughts were that I needed to microdose to keep my mind ‘stable’. However, that is not a result of microdosing because I do have a history of depression and mood swings.
I’d summarise by saying that microdosing does appear to be having an impact on depression and mood (stabilises it); however, there is possibly an element of *believing* in the microdosing also impacting on how I interpret what’s happening to me.
To continue or not?
I am not sure whether to continue as I do not know what the long term effects of this are likely to be. Plus…I really like taking the higher doses but have stopped to concentrate on microdosing. I’ve just resumed my running though, and it might be useful to see if my running performance improves as a result.
Hope this is useful in some ways; it’s certainly been harmless and worthwhile!
