@1984 414642 wrote:
I find it hard to adjust to my life afterwards as its very dull and loanly. So the temptation is to use rugs regularly which I don’t want to do. Plus I have depression and drugs dont help that obviously.
And yeah 2bh its just not as exciting anymore, but starting drugs and clubbing at 17 ish and I am 25 nearly 26 now so its no massive surprise.
Raving is fun but its so throwaway. I dont look back and think wow that was interesting. Driving around for hours to stand in a field and listen to someone who can barley mix isnt exactly a wild story. Its a fun way to pass the time but I guess I am hoping to find something more substantial and less ‘sticking drugs in me to make me feel good.’ But I always found balance hard, I can imagine people who can part and enjoy healthy hobbys etc can make it much more viable.
Plus I have seen to much addiction, so many lives wrecked, so many kids fuck themselves up (myself included to an extent) that it makes it hard to be keen.
it is very hard, you spend like 3 days on the come down doing E’s and even on acid you spend 15 hours tripping and then a few days getting over it..
from 17 to 25-26 is many years to do it and if your depressed thats good that ur staying away from it as some drugs like e they say make you more depressed… dunno how true that is but constantly doing them really can mess you up which is why i alway shave long breaks when i feel im getting to the danger point.
too much of a good thing is bad for you!
with the acid monkey you just put the post code in ur gps and ur ok but you wait around online to find the address so its not as bad… as long as you can do it like once or twice a year and control it and not let it get in the way of your life then its ok i think, though there is the risk of getting busted each time you go and buy drugs.
so time to move to something better and brighter… less chance of OD’ing
