^ fecken GOLD! sorry for laughing but damn that’s funny shit! That’s an anti-drugs story to tell the grandkids …
What ketamine did for me was make me chronically addicted to it and led me down a dark path of downers, at first k alone was enough to get me to my most favoured escaped and blissful state, then it led to chronic bladder damage and internal and external pain which then led to weak painkillers to get rid of, didn’t take too long to lead to strong pain killers which almost ended my life and utterly smashed my reputation and soul.
Luckily my bladder is repairing itself and I have not died from the path I sadly went down. For the few people who bond well with Ketamine (a lot of people get very sick from it, I (when i say I i mean my addict) utterly love the dirty drips that come from doing gram lines), these people can and have done as i have seen it many times get a serious addiction and absolute drain you mentally, physically and spiritually. Ketamine is a bad drug but luckily in the UK it has gone up in price so much and it’s so hard to find now that lots of people will be saved from the horrible nature of this substance.
Ketamine in moderation is pretty harmless and can be extremely fun, for me it was extremely nice, that’s how it felt, but was extremely life shattering and I was a walking zombie for years and years. Nowadays you’d probably have to pay 40 quid for a .7 if you could get real uncut gear, whereas back in the day you could get 50g for 250 quid or 6250mg (an 8th of a litre (50g) for around 60-70. This caused so much shit in my hometown, one girl I know personally and even went to school with had to have 3 surgeries on her bladder and almost needed a piss bag at the age of 23. Some people have piss bags from this shit. I was lucky in the fact that I never suffered from pissing blood, I do not know how, though I did get chronic k cramps 5-6 times which ranged from 3-7 days of absolute pain and hell. This substance also caused me to be almost unable to function at all and drained the life out of me.
That said I never realised how addiction worked and how bad I was suffering mentally from a serious illness, I genuinely believed the mental obsession telling myself I want k i want k i want k every single day was genuinely me, I thought I was someone who loved ketamine, which is not the truth, I’m sure if anyone else is finding themselves in the same situation with other drugs may not realise yet that that voice in your head constantly telling you to drink/sniff/smoke etc over and over is actually a symptom of addiction and not you. Get a month clean off of a drug and you’ll soon realise that the voice disappears and the power of choice comes back, when you’re in the depths of addiction there isn’t much choice, it’s hard to fight off a voice and thought which overpowers all other… Then there’s the physical side which most people know well enough…
If you’re going to use drugs, you may as well just stick with the non-addictive psychedelic ones, because at least they don’t lie to you and cause your body to get ill without them. But the best drug is just good friends and a man or woman you love and hobbies. Choose life, not droogs, they only lead to a few places generally, and that is prison, rehabs and mental hospitals, and death. If you can dabble with hard drugs often and not end up in any of those places I listed, you are one of the few lucky ones.
Much love people, Ketamine certainly isn’t love.
@p0lski 590958 wrote:
What ketamine did for me was make me chronically addicted to it and led me down a dark path of downers, at first k alone was enough to get me to my most favoured escaped and blissful state, then it led to chronic bladder damage and internal and external pain which then led to weak painkillers to get rid of, didn’t take too long to lead to strong pain killers which almost ended my life and utterly smashed my reputation and soul.
Luckily my bladder is repairing itself and I have not died from the path I sadly went down. For the few people who bond well with Ketamine (a lot of people get very sick from it, I (when i say I i mean my addict) utterly love the dirty drips that come from doing gram lines), these people can and have done as i have seen it many times get a serious addiction and absolute drain you mentally, physically and spiritually. Ketamine is a bad drug but luckily in the UK it has gone up in price so much and it’s so hard to find now that lots of people will be saved from the horrible nature of this substance.
Ketamine in moderation is pretty harmless and can be extremely fun, for me it was extremely nice, that’s how it felt, but was extremely life shattering and I was a walking zombie for years and years. Nowadays you’d probably have to pay 40 quid for a .7 if you could get real uncut gear, whereas back in the day you could get 50g for 250 quid or 6250mg (an 8th of a litre (50g) for around 60-70. This caused so much shit in my hometown, one girl I know personally and even went to school with had to have 3 surgeries on her bladder and almost needed a piss bag at the age of 23. Some people have piss bags from this shit. I was lucky in the fact that I never suffered from pissing blood, I do not know how, though I did get chronic k cramps 5-6 times which ranged from 3-7 days of absolute pain and hell. This substance also caused me to be almost unable to function at all and drained the life out of me.
That said I never realised how addiction worked and how bad I was suffering mentally from a serious illness, I genuinely believed the mental obsession telling myself I want k i want k i want k every single day was genuinely me, I thought I was someone who loved ketamine, which is not the truth, I’m sure if anyone else is finding themselves in the same situation with other drugs may not realise yet that that voice in your head constantly telling you to drink/sniff/smoke etc over and over is actually a symptom of addiction and not you. Get a month clean off of a drug and you’ll soon realise that the voice disappears and the power of choice comes back, when you’re in the depths of addiction there isn’t much choice, it’s hard to fight off a voice and thought which overpowers all other… Then there’s the physical side which most people know well enough…
If you’re going to use drugs, you may as well just stick with the non-addictive psychedelic ones, because at least they don’t lie to you and cause your body to get ill without them. But the best drug is just good friends and a man or woman you love and hobbies. Choose life, not droogs, they only lead to a few places generally, and that is prison, rehabs and mental hospitals, and death. If you can dabble with hard drugs often and not end up in any of those places I listed, you are one of the few lucky ones.
Much love people, Ketamine certainly isn’t love.
Word. I’m pretty certain you were at the peak of your addiction when I met you a couple of years ago. And it wasn’t a pretty sight, even for a festival goer, you were a mess.
@The Psyentist 590959 wrote:
Word. I’m pretty certain you were at the peak of your addiction when I met you a couple of years ago. And it wasn’t a pretty sight, even for a festival goer, you were a mess.
Yes, that was the worst I was in the whole of my addiction. At that festival I was using in blackout almost non-stop. The only moment I remember quite clearly, apart from doing Ket with you in your tent feeling really zonked. Was when my EX-GF said to me on the last day in the morning ‘LOOK YOU’VE BEEN OUT YOUR BRAINS THE WHOLE FESTIVAL, I WANT TO SPEND SOME TIME WITH YOU DON’T DO ANY KETAMINE TODAY’ in my mind I said, I want to be a good boyfriend, I have been a selfish addict, I will not use Ketamine until tonight, I then said Ok I won’t. She then turned around to walk over to someone and my mind instantly went DO KETAMINE NOW NOW NOW NOW SHE’S NOT LOOKING SHE WON’T KNOW QUICK QUICK…. and I pulled out a gram and did it in one go… A few seconds before i genuinely wanted to not do any, then my addict turned me into a cunt and sniffed a gram. It took her about 2 minutes to realise I was k’d out of my brain…. needless to say she was fucking fuming and I didn’t even know what I’d become….
Later that night I remember thinking I ain’t done fuck all this whole festie, i remember nothing, so i decided to buy a g of mdma to try and bring me up, i ate a whole gram and i was on so many downers it didn’t even do a thing…. Then the days after the festival I almost died of a severe overdose and almost got run over many times while in K holes…. NOT FUN. Luckily though I was able to be detoxed after the severe OD and get some real help.
The thing about addiction is it’s the only illness that lies to you and tells you you do not have it.
@p0lski 591010 wrote:
Yes, that was the worst I was in the whole of my addiction. At that festival I was using in blackout almost non-stop. The only moment I remember quite clearly, apart from doing Ket with you in your tent feeling really zonked. Was when my EX-GF said to me on the last day in the morning ‘LOOK YOU’VE BEEN OUT YOUR BRAINS THE WHOLE FESTIVAL, I WANT TO SPEND SOME TIME WITH YOU DON’T DO ANY KETAMINE TODAY’ in my mind I said, I want to be a good boyfriend, I have been a selfish addict, I will not use Ketamine until tonight, I then said Ok I won’t. She then turned around to walk over to someone and my mind instantly went DO KETAMINE NOW NOW NOW NOW SHE’S NOT LOOKING SHE WON’T KNOW QUICK QUICK…. and I pulled out a gram and did it in one go… A few seconds before i genuinely wanted to not do any, then my addict turned me into a cunt and sniffed a gram. It took her about 2 minutes to realise I was k’d out of my brain…. needless to say she was fucking fuming and I didn’t even know what I’d become….
Later that night I remember thinking I ain’t done fuck all this whole festie, i remember nothing, so i decided to buy a g of mdma to try and bring me up, i ate a whole gram and i was on so many downers it didn’t even do a thing…. Then the days after the festival I almost died of a severe overdose and almost got run over many times while in K holes…. NOT FUN. Luckily though I was able to be detoxed after the severe OD and get some real help.
The thing about addiction is it’s the only illness that lies to you and tells you you do not have it.
Well glad you got your shit together man 🙂 You know to stay clear from now on, and I think that slip up the other week which I won’t detail on here should be a reminder. You’ve pulled yourself out of the shit before you can do it again brother. You think you’ll be going to Shambala again this year mate? I’m considering it cos I missed last year.
@p0lski 591010 wrote:
The thing about addiction is it’s the only illness that lies to you and tells you you do not have it.
Not truer words spoken/typed.
@p0lski 591010 wrote:
Yes, that was the worst I was in the whole of my addiction. At that festival I was using in blackout almost non-stop. The only moment I remember quite clearly, apart from doing Ket with you in your tent feeling really zonked. Was when my EX-GF said to me on the last day in the morning ‘LOOK YOU’VE BEEN OUT YOUR BRAINS THE WHOLE FESTIVAL, I WANT TO SPEND SOME TIME WITH YOU DON’T DO ANY KETAMINE TODAY’ in my mind I said, I want to be a good boyfriend, I have been a selfish addict, I will not use Ketamine until tonight, I then said Ok I won’t. She then turned around to walk over to someone and my mind instantly went DO KETAMINE NOW NOW NOW NOW SHE’S NOT LOOKING SHE WON’T KNOW QUICK QUICK…. and I pulled out a gram and did it in one go… A few seconds before i genuinely wanted to not do any, then my addict turned me into a cunt and sniffed a gram. It took her about 2 minutes to realise I was k’d out of my brain…. needless to say she was fucking fuming and I didn’t even know what I’d become….
Later that night I remember thinking I ain’t done fuck all this whole festie, i remember nothing, so i decided to buy a g of mdma to try and bring me up, i ate a whole gram and i was on so many downers it didn’t even do a thing…. Then the days after the festival I almost died of a severe overdose and almost got run over many times while in K holes…. NOT FUN. Luckily though I was able to be detoxed after the severe OD and get some real help.
The thing about addiction is it’s the only illness that lies to you and tells you you do not have it.
thank you so much for sharing this i think your the only person thts ever spoken truthfully and im glad you got it sorted theres a lot of ket goin round my area and its goin for as little as a tenner a g loads of my mates are taking this on a regular basis somebody should probably let them know what theyre in for
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