I don’t believe i could have a racist mind in any way what so ever.. However to day i found my self in an awkward situation. I was walking around a shop singing ‘ ching a – ching cong china man’ right after i seen a Asian man. I only realised what i was singing after i seen him again i felt very embarrassed and had to walk away. I remember a time the same thing had happened to me a year ago.
Now thinking about if i might be racist or not I also can remember getting on to a train and walking into an empty carriage and moving on once seeing an Asian man with a back-pack sitting by himself, I was thinking at the time he might blow everything up ( maybe i watch to much bad news?)
i spoke to my friend about this and he reminded me that i use the world ‘ Nigger’ and ‘monkey’ when referring to a black football player.
In my own mind i despise the racist people and would never amount to their level, But when my brain goes on autopilot and i come up with these insulting words without a thought must mean something?
