i think different drugs bring out different things in u… for me the drug of regret is most often alcohol, especially wen i havent had a drink for a while and i end up getting pissed really quick n i tend to lose myself really easily with it and get drawn into things and becoming reactive, when most of the time i’m quite passive… it can be explosive stuff in relationships. i really dont like pissed gf arguments, they’re always bad. to give at least some amount of juice for your thread (as u did ask), my last gf (was a member on this site and quite few ppl here know her), was chellywonder, and we were in wetherspoons having a nice meal, watching the olympic opening ceremony and getting pissed up (or maybe it was just me getting pissed up, i cant remember)… all the countries have their moment to parade round, smiling with flags etc (as u know) and er china came round and the lead guy was a much taller than average chinese guy that seemingly had a kinda squarish, square jaw face, that to me looked quite western, a bit like american dad but less caricature… and i joked that he had a ‘perfect western face’ but said in this way, realised it probably sounded quite elitist/supremacist, but it was too late, the words were out… after that chellerwonder taunted me somewhat and suggested i was a racist… but in retrospect, probably in quite a light-hearted way… but i was immediately embarrassed, drunk and my ego and i were having none of it, so i propelled us into a full on argument with people all around. it must have seemed bit absurd that we were a couple arguing about whether (ok i was arguing) or not i was racist when she’s an african american and i a pasty english… it escalated to me calling her a cunt and purposefully knocking my beer over in the pub, leaving early, and i called barrettone a dick via phone also… it was definitely a sad day for nursey :yawn: … but thankfully followed the next day by an epic ‘fear n loathing’ in a village style premier inn with pv crew’ for b’day, climaxing with the arrest of 2 pv members
maybe the other drug of regret, i find, not often but sometimes very much, can be mdma, cos it u can feel free and open, but sometimes on the following day maybe u would have chose to not be quite so er free, but i’ve already given some juice so that will have to do, lol
