Looking for some opinions/ideas/general discussion on a bad trip Friday night.
Brought a gram of ‘MDMA’, white brownish crystals. done it on a few occasions and the journey I have when I’ve taken it is ace, feel all loved up, ready to dance the night away and enjoy myself.
Last night was different, me & my mate took 1 bomb each at around midnight, nothing happened for about 40 mins, then I started to feel something happening, it wasn’t like anything I have experienced before, I felt weird but not in a good way, I became really dizzy and couldn’t stand or dance, the feelings in my legs completely went and I remember standing on the dancefloor talking to myself, telling myself I didn’t feel right and that I needed to get out but I couldn’t move. My friend turned around and looked panicked as soon as she saw me, she grabbed my arm and pulled me outside, she said my eyes were fixed but she could see I was TERRIFIED of something.
We stood outside, then my eyes started shaking (never experienced this) I assumed I was imagining it, it got worse and my eyes started rolling around violently and I just lost total control, then I went deaf for about ten minutes, all I could hear was my heart beating, it hurt so much i felt like it was about to explode, then my hearing started to come back but it wasn’t right, I tried to calm myself down, mind over matter type of thing, I knew if i panicked myself it would have only gotten worse, I tried to go with it, enjoy the feelings but all i could feel was panic.
My friend was fine till this point, then she stopped talking to me, her eyes started rolling and she went deaf herself, we decided to take ourselves away from the packed club and put ourselves into the toilet cubicle and just try wait it out. We spent the evening in there waiting for our eyes to calm the fuck down, I know some people enjoy that, but I’ve never had it happen to me when I’ve been on MDMA. It took about 6 hours for our eyes to stop and for my hearing to come back again, then the comedown happened, felt completely empty, I tried to see if we could go back out and enjoy ourselves, we attempted to dance but there was no point, neither of us was in the dancing mood so we just sat again until we could go home.
At no point of the night after I took it did I feel the whole love feelings / happiness that I always get, made me question what the fuck happened, what did I take? I haven’t slept yet and my jaw is still going, making my cheeks bleed, my eyes still keep flickering, I’m still shaking non stop and my heart is still hurting, I tried to sleep last night but all I could see was colours when I closed my eyes, I slept for ten minutes but I woke up trying to catch my breath.
Anyone else experienced this? Or did I just experience something that a lot of people do, and I haven’t yet 😛 I was scared I’m not going to lie, but maybe it was the situation I was in, think the place had a bad vibe to it, everyone was angry and the first thing I saw when I went inside was a girl getting beaten up by two lads, so maybe I just picked up on all that and thats why It didn’t turn out how it usually does..
