(Hi everyone! This post is for those who have ever done bdsm (or watched bdsm porn) while high on MDMA or ecstasy, or who have heard stories of other people who have combined bdsm with ecstasy/MDMA. I know many people see ethical problems with BDSM so I apologize in advance for that.)
Have you ever become suddenly turned off (and saddened) by BDSM because you were high on MDMA or ecstasy? Because this is what happened to my wife and I the other day.
We took it at the same time and started getting kinky right away, not waiting for the high to hit us. It hit me first, while I was giving her some lashings (she’s a masochistic sub and I’m a sadistic dom) and all of a sudden what I was doing made me feel very sad. I knew intellectually that I had her consent and she was feeling pleasure, but on an emotional level I felt the grief that I would feel if my wife was being whipped without consent and she was feeling devastated.
I stopped whipping her and switched into a different bdsm scene. But again the same thing happened… I felt grief as if my wife were being abused. But I continued on with it because she was into it and I wanted to seem like the big strong unemotional dominant that she is used to me being.
In the middle of this the MDMA hit her. And she had the same reaction. I could tell she stopped enjoying the bdsm and a couple minutes later she said her safe word. We tried doing some light domination stuff, me ordering her around, but even that was upsetting to us. So we just stopped and cuddled (at least the MDMA made THAT wonderful). It took about half an hour to feel better and then we just had vanilla sex, which was extremely passionate. The rest of the high we just spent chatting and dancing in the living room.
Later on I remembered that like ten years ago I took pure MDMA at a club and was still high when I got home, and started watching porn. It was BDSM porn but instead of turning me on as it usually did, it made me feel sad. I’d forgotten about that until now.
We’ve actually done BDSM while on ecstasy before and had fun, but it was the impure tablets while this time it was pure MDMA… so maybe that ecstasy had very little MDMA.
So does anyone else have experience doing BDSM while on MDMA or ecstasy? How was your reaction? (Also please mention if you were in the role of dominant/sadist or submissive/masochist at the time, I wonder if this makes a difference because I know a switch (someone who likes both roles) who likes to be the submissive while on MDMA but dislikes being the dominant while on it.)
