Well done ebabes, you are an inspiration for all us users!
I too am a herion/opiates addict and have been for 5 years now, I too wasn’t abused as a child and come from a loving and supportive family. There is a real misconception of people who use gear and their family life etc!! I was brought up in a small village in Yorkshire and had two older brothers, who were/are very protective of me. So how did I start using??? Pretty much the same as ebabes, pot then fete then pills then coke then gear! I always enjoyed living dangourously and had done from about the age of 2, obviously in different ways! My days clubbin’ were some of the best time of my life, I loved the social side and of course the pills, coke and ket side! At the time I was seeing a lad, who was a bit of a bad lad, but he excited me! – And he loved me, I had never felt so loved ever before! Life seemed so great! Until the pills were making me fell shite, I mean I had always had come downs, but never like this before.
One weekend we were in Birmingham at Sundissential and we met a group of lads and lasses, they were sound and we had such a laugh and so when we left they invited the 20 of us back to a house party. We went.
The day turned into 2 and things had got SO SO messy!! I was feeling paranoid, and nothing felt real. I felt so crap I would have done anything to make me feel relaxed and slightly normal. I was wondering around this house, and went up stairs, a door was shut and so I opened it and walked in. These 4 faces looked at me, their pupils small and looked relaxed and content! This one lass had a foil tube in her hand when I asked what is was she said do you want some, I asked again what is was and she just handed me the foil and the tube I tried to run this myslef but to no avail and so she proceded to run the Gear as I inhaled it, god it felt good.
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After 5 – 8 lines, I asked if I could buy some, they agreed and I went off to find my purse..When I saw Steven, my boyf, he asked what I needed my purse for so I told him, he came with me and we bought 2 £15 shots and smoked them together. At no point did I ever think that this was the beggining of the biggest downward spirral ever.
Like ebabes, the using after clubbin became more regular then the clubbin stopped, and we started using Monday then Wednesday until hay presto we had a full boar habit. During this time our friends became more suss and eventually found out of our using habits. My two very closest friends fell out with me and I still don’t see them to this very day! Anyway (Sorry I am going on!) After 2 years of using everyday, the money sources all ran out and scoring with £9.24 was becoming a bit shitty. I had started to dig the gear and we both, Steven & I, were rock bottom. We had been struggling through each day and needed some serious money. We had decided that we would do an armed robbery. Myself, another user and Steven had come up with this plan which we would never get caught for. The robbery went ahead and we got very little cash, but we didn’t care we had some money so we weren’t bothered. Scored some gear and some stone and sat at my mums (she was on holiday) getting hammered. Bliss!
It wasnt until about 2 weeks later that we got caught, kinda knew we would! What was to come next was the hardest part of my herion career!…….
TO BE CONTINUED!:wink:
