Crisis Thread

[1 Deez @deez Member]

If I had a gun i’d probably end it right now.

[1 The Psyentist @the-psyentist Member]

@DeezNuts 530198 wrote:

If I had a gun i’d probably end it right now.

I know that feeling only too well mate.

[6 General Lighting @general-lighting Moderator Staff]

it is unfortunately normal to be “confused” in your teens/young adulthood, the fucked up thing is that society does not really give you the time to develop…

[1 Deez @deez Member]

@General Lighting 530207 wrote:

it is unfortunately normal to be “confused” in your teens/young adulthood, the fucked up thing is that society does not really give you the time to develop…

Yup. I was even talking to my dad earlier and said I didn’t know what to do with my life in general and he said you best decide quick then. Said I didn’t enjoy college and my subjects and that and he just said do you think I enjoyed engineering when I was your age? Do you think I enjoy it now? Do I fuck. I just do it for the money. Get a high paying job and you’ll have money to do the things you DO like.
Wasn’t exactly helpful.

Tbh I think since I started college i’ve gotten depressed, some days i’ll be okay but others it gets real bad…

[6 General Lighting @general-lighting Moderator Staff]

unfortunately your dad is half right inasmuch that you do need to get through some of the boring bits of college or a job to succeed in life, though if he genuinely does not have a passion for engineering he would not have succeeded in his career.

The other difficult thing is the whole emotional rollercoaster of drugs and depression being extremely common from age 16-30 in young men, and it must be even worse today as young people who grew up in the 1990s / 2000s have been promised a fuckload of things like better careeer prospects/work life balance which since the economic depression have got no better than what it was like in the 1980s.

[1 Deez @deez Member]

@General Lighting 530226 wrote:

unfortunately your dad is half right inasmuch that you do need to get through some of the boring bits of college or a job to succeed in life, though if he genuinely does not have a passion for engineering he would not have succeeded in his career.

The other difficult thing is the whole emotional rollercoaster of drugs and depression being extremely common from age 16-30 in young men, and it must be even worse today as young people who grew up in the 1990s / 2000s have been promised a fuckload of things like better careeer prospects/work life balance which since the economic depression have got no better than what it was like in the 1980s.

I know that but the thing that frustrates me is I have no idea what I want to do with my life and considering i’ll be stuck doing it for the majority of my life i’d rather not rush into it and end up regretting it.
What makes this even worse is the fact that even if I do go to university i’m not guaranteed a job and could just end up doing something mundane and low paid anyway, so many university students don’t actually get the jobs they have trained for. I don’t see the point getting into debt to do something i’m not particularly interested in which I may not even end up doing anyway.

I can’t find the answers i’m looking for really and I don’t know when i’ll find them, but I hope it’s soon because my mind is starting to get warped whilst i’m stuck in limbo..

[1 MC G-Tek @mc-g-tek Member]

@DeezNuts 530245 wrote:

I know that but the thing that frustrates me is I have no idea what I want to do with my life and considering i’ll be stuck doing it for the majority of my life i’d rather not rush into it and end up regretting it.
What makes this even worse is the fact that even if I do go to university i’m not guaranteed a job and could just end up doing something mundane and low paid anyway, so many university students don’t actually get the jobs they have trained for. I don’t see the point getting into debt to do something i’m not particularly interested in which I may not even end up doing anyway.

I can’t find the answers i’m looking for really and I don’t know when i’ll find them, but I hope it’s soon because my mind is starting to get warped whilst i’m stuck in limbo..

Chin up mate, don’t feel constrained to a timescale imposed by others, eventually you’ll find something that really appeals to you. In the meantime, just enjoy your youth, you won’t have it forever pal.

[1 Deez @deez Member]

@MC G-Tek 530308 wrote:

Chin up mate, don’t feel constrained to a timescale imposed by others, eventually you’ll find something that really appeals to you. In the meantime, just enjoy your youth, you won’t have it forever pal.

Cheers man I try to and do on the whole I guess, but it’s a lot more difficult to when you got people putting pressure on you to do something you can’t. I don’t know why everyone thinks it’s as simple as just thinking “Solicitor. That sounds good!” or maybe it is and i’m overcomplicating it. It just seems that people have accepted that they have to get a job they don’t enjoy in order to make money but I think thats bullshit, if i’m going to be doing something 8 hours or whatever a day i’d want to enjoy it…
Here’s Alan Watts speaking about it, guys a legend, highly reccomend people watch this even if they aren’t in my situation.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=siu6JYqOZ0g

[1 MC G-Tek @mc-g-tek Member]

@DeezNuts 530320 wrote:

Cheers man I try to and do on the whole I guess, but it’s a lot more difficult to when you got people putting pressure on you to do something you can’t. I don’t know why everyone thinks it’s as simple as just thinking “Solicitor. That sounds good!” or maybe it is and i’m overcomplicating it. It just seems that people have accepted that they have to get a job they don’t enjoy in order to make money but I think thats bullshit, if i’m going to be doing something 8 hours or whatever a day i’d want to enjoy it…
Here’s Alan Watts speaking about it, guys a legend, highly reccomend people watch this even if they aren’t in my situation.

Cool man, I’ll watch the vid in a bit. You’re right though, some folk are more than content to do any job, no matter how much they hate it. If I don’t like / want to do a particular job, there’s no way I’m gonna last in it man. Even if I’m being paid to do it, I’m not giving up my time for something I hate.

[1 The Psyentist @the-psyentist Member]

I just logged on to Facebook. Now going to perform a DIY lobotomy using a rusty chisel and cillit bang

[1 The Psyentist @the-psyentist Member]

@DeezNuts 530209 wrote:

Yup. I was even talking to my dad earlier and said I didn’t know what to do with my life in general and he said you best decide quick then. Said I didn’t enjoy college and my subjects and that and he just said do you think I enjoyed engineering when I was your age? Do you think I enjoy it now? Do I fuck. I just do it for the money. Get a high paying job and you’ll have money to do the things you DO like.
Wasn’t exactly helpful.

Tbh I think since I started college i’ve gotten depressed, some days i’ll be okay but others it gets real bad…

That’s one of the things that gets me so down and partly what I meant when my psychiatrist told me to conform like everybody else. The world is governed by money not people but that’s not the world I want to live in. I know I’m capable of it, and the problem is others do to, but I don’t want to excel and have a stressful high paying job so I can have a big house and nice car. I’m a minimalist in every sense of the word but I’m happy with less. Society however has an expectation for you to apply yourself and be the most you can but the way I see it is I’m going to lose it all one day anyway so why bother stressing yourself out to earn it?? I really do have days where I want to walk away from all my responsibilities and live a simple life where all I need to be concerned with is my own survival. I’ve even considered deliberately committing a heinous crime so I guarantee myself a long stretch in prison, in a way I think an institutionalised life would suit me just fine. How fucked is it when the pressures of life have brought me to that conclusion?!?!

[1 Deez @deez Member]

@The Psyentist 530339 wrote:

That’s one of the things that gets me so down and partly what I meant when my psychiatrist told me to conform like everybody else. The world is governed by money not people but that’s not the world I want to live in. I know I’m capable of it, and the problem is others do to, but I don’t want to excel and have a stressful high paying job so I can have a big house and nice car. I’m a minimalist in every sense of the word but I’m happy with less. Society however has an expectation for you to apply yourself and be the most you can but the way I see it is I’m going to lose it all one day anyway so why bother stressing yourself out to earn it?? I really do have days where I want to walk away from all my responsibilities and live a simple life where all I need to be concerned with is my own survival. I’ve even considered deliberately committing a heinous crime so I guarantee myself a long stretch in prison, in a way I think an institutionalised life would suit me just fine. How fucked is it when the pressures of life have brought me to that conclusion?!?!

Exactly man. To be honest I wouldn’t mind having a cabin out in the woods somewhere with my own patch of land, just living off of it. I’ve been saying it for years and tbh that’s the only thing I really dream of, that and being a succesful DJ/Musician. But by succesful I don’t mean I want to make loads of money though them, just that people enjoy my performances/music.
I don’t see why people think you have to have a large amount of money to be a success, i’d say I was quite succesful even now as I haven’t become a sheep like the majority of people and am proud to be who I am and not copy everyone else which like 95% of people my age seem to do, it’s a fucking joke. By being who I am i’ve probably missed out on a lot of things, but I wouldn’t change it to be honest. So what if I wasn’t going to house parties every weekend and getting smashed from the age of like 13 (Bit of a lie.. did it for a bit but it’s not for me).

I do wonder though, have I confined myself to this depression and constant questioning of everything by being like this? Life as one of the sheeple sure would be easier, they care about such trivial things its ridiculous, but ultimately I think it would be a shittier existence than the one i’m currently experiencing.
Went off on one there but hey, why not.

[1 MC G-Tek @mc-g-tek Member]

@The Psyentist 530338 wrote:

I just logged on to Facebook. Now going to perform a DIY lobotomy using a rusty chisel and cillit bang

Sweet, you can join me and the other pv-ers on there too man!

[1 The Psyentist @the-psyentist Member]

@DeezNuts 530342 wrote:

I do wonder though, have I confined myself to this depression and constant questioning of everything by being like this? Life as one of the sheeple sure would be easier, they care about such trivial things its ridiculous, but ultimately I think it would be a shittier existence than the one i’m currently experiencing.

I feel the same, it feels as though my reluctance to do as I’m told without question is what constrains me to this life of uncertainty and ultimately depression. But then again I know I wouldn’t be happy if I disregarded my true feelings and did simply conform. But the unquestioning loyalty of the sheeple seems like an easy route but just so unsatisfying once you’ve already started to ponder the possibilities of alternative lifestyles. I don’t know, guess this is why I enjoy smoking weed so much. It enables me to be a sheeperson without my mind telling me that I’m unhappy in doing so.

I’ve also considered a hermit-esque lifestyle. A little hut on a beach in Brazil sounds nice, or even a cave lol

[1 Deez @deez Member]

@The Psyentist 530354 wrote:

I feel the same, it feels as though my reluctance to do as I’m told without question is what constrains me to this life of uncertainty and ultimately depression. But then again I know I wouldn’t be happy if I disregarded my true feelings and did simply conform. But the unquestioning loyalty of the sheeple seems like an easy route but just so unsatisfying once you’ve already started to ponder the possibilities of alternative lifestyles. I don’t know, guess this is why I enjoy smoking weed so much. It enables me to be a sheeperson without my mind telling me that I’m unhappy in doing so.

I’ve also considered a hermit-esque lifestyle. A little hut on a beach in Brazil sounds nice, or even a cave lol

Yeah i’m the same man. Weed allows me to escape all this bullshit, but that’s why i’ve stopped smoking it, atleast for the time being. It’s never a good idea to use drugs as an escape because they then become your clutch. I think i’m starting to understand my drug use and myself, but I can’t be sure.

Yup that would be sweet indeed, or somewhere in Asia would be nice aswell. Just chilling, smoking a joint in a deckchair with a beer in hand, sun beaming down on me.. perfection

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