Finding someone you can trust to talk to about your feelings is a good first step. When you have nothing but the constant back and forth and echoes within your own mind, it becomes a locked loop which only feeds into itself a lot of the time. Finding that external voice can jolt you out of stuff when you feel like things are starting to run away from you.
If you feel like meds would help you, then try them. At least for a little while, meds can help treat the symptoms and allow you to get your life to a point where you don’t need them anymore. I would be wary of becoming “dependent” upon the meds, or using them as a crutch. I’m no doctor but given what I’ve seen and experienced, the best use of these types of medications is to eliminate the symptoms so you can focus on the root problem, and then you won’t need the meds anymore.
Just remember there’s always someone who cares. Sometimes the weight of the world can be a heavy load, but if you look around there will be people willing to help, because to them, your happiness matters, too.
