It’s been 4 weeks since I’ve taken shrooms and for the most part the trip was fantastic, but the end of the trip got really bad with roller coaster emotions, bad anxiety and nothing seemed to make sense, possibly because I smoked throughout the night and not long before this occurred. I managed to fall asleep that night and when I woke up I felt completely fine and totally myself for most of the day following the trip. Although later in the evening I was sitting at the dinner table and even though I had reflected on the trip throughout the day, when I did it this time a certain thought caused me to have this horrible feeling come over me. Ever since I’ve been in a dreadful state of what some people tell me is depression. At times I don’t feel too terrible and feel as though the symptoms are lifting but definitely not 100%. And when I finally feel like things are getting better I’ll just get random bouts of complete darkness. I feel empty, I can understand emotions but not necessarily feel anything but anxiety/fear and guilt/sadness. My sex drive is pretty much gone, and I’ve lost feelings for things/people that I would’ve been very passionate about before hand. I was a regular marijuana smoker prior to the trip but haven’t seen any benefits of smoking since this has happened so I’ve quit for almost 3 weeks now. I just feel so distraught, overwhelmed and extremely stressed out. Today was the first time I’ve actually been able to cry, and I cried really hard, which felt kind of good but still definitely not what I want to be doing. There are times of clarity which I try my best to lock in and remain calm but sometimes it’s nearly impossible. I know this is to an extent somewhat common, but can anyone give any tips as to how I should approach getting better or an estimated time of when this will leave or just any sort of input. I feel like I’m losing my mind at times with intense mood swings (not really happy to sad, but anxious to relaxed, or having major contradicting feelings about certain things) and being strong willed at this point is getting exhausting. The only thing giving me comfort is knowing that I was okay most of the day after and that the drugs must not have ruined my mind permanently, but sometimes it’s hard to even hold onto that because these feelings have stuck for so long and it’s a constant battle to try and keep my mind off the subject. Just need some insight please.
Thank you in advance.
