I Too have had more trips on weed that anything else, I do not experience visuals or heightened mental sensitivity (i do experience heightened skin sensitivity and equal “lack” of sensitivity depending on body part) on copious amounts of MDMA, just feel supremely happy and cuddly and have to breath really deeply, but I am absolutely always there and only need to “think sober” to be sober. I get a very physical reaction to MDMA, including balance issues, I cannot do stairs, irregular surfaces/walking on soft things like mattress/cushions etc.
Weed I seem to have a very psychological reaction too and have experienced heightened visuals, including “colourful music”, once in a blue moon (so far twice in three years) I smoke a joint and immediately gone into a severe huff, extreme woman style, worse than any PMS, that lasts about 15 minutes then disappears as fast as it comes. This only comes to mind as it happened for the second time yesterday. I am moody by nature though so there are underlying circumstances for this.
You however sound as if you just don’t cope well, I’ve not read the whole thread but sounds like a version of a panic attack, the near physical paralysis is something I have had (without drugs) during a severe panic attack, and the weed can distance you even more from your body. I’d recommend seriously scaling down your dose if you want to smoke again, and looking into “what” you are smoking. Not all plants were made equal! 🙂 I love anything in the Haze family, but have avoided everything in the cheese and skunk family as they upset my connection between brain and body in a way I don’t like.
It may be that weed just isn’t for you unfortunately.
