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@smokeitup 397436 wrote:

regretamine! same old story ennit. thinking of moving out of Brighton and stating a fresh. maybe back to Milton Keynes/Northampton where i have mates who arnt on le wonk. But ive always said you should never go back in life and always move forward… but then the thought of being in a new city and not knowing anyone scares the shit out of me.

you’ll always be able to find it mate. running away doesnt sort anything imo. and if you are gonna go somewhere doubt MK is the best place, full of wonk as far as i know. take it the rehab thing didnt work out then?

@smokeitup 397440 wrote:

nah rehab didnt work out. i learnt alot in there tho. when i lived in Northampton about 10 years ago ketamine was vitually unheard of (i tried my hardest to get hold of it) i guess things have changed tho.
i know running away from the problem isnt really the way forward, but ive literally tried everything else. ive thought about going back to rehab.. i different program. I didnt think the program i was in was really for me. It was all very therapy based and they tied to blame my addiction on my childhood.. mostly my dad. Where as i blame no one else for my addiciton other than myself. I just like drugs, end of. Im a ery laid back person and my childhood didnt effect me. Thats the way i see it anyway, others seem to hae a different opinion.

maybe worth giving rehab another go, but unless you decide for sure that you want to stop and stop for good then its never gonna work. not being pessamistic, but unless you make the decision it doesnt matter what people say or do for you really. same for smokers. you can tell them everything about how bad it is etc etc, but unless they snap and decide to stop then its never gonna happen…

how much does the rehab cost?

@smokeitup 397451 wrote:

yea an thats what im struggeling to decide.. whether i wanna gie up for good. or seldom use. but i dont know if thats possible.
the last rehab i was in was paid for by housing benefit. Well it costs £120 a week to stay in rehab, £100 of which is paid for by housing benefit and the other £20 is to be paid for out of our own pockets, which is sick pay (you are signed off sick whilst in rehab and go on incapacity benefits) So its pretty good.
There are other rehabs that are private which cost more, but i cant afford it, and to be honest i rekon BHT is as good as it gets. They do have a pretty good success rate. Maybe i should have stuck to it an i wouldnt be in the position im in now. I would hae been there for 3 months by now. GRRR

that is pretty good, didnt realise they paid for it. dont let the thought that you might not be able stop, stop you trying though. if you really dont like where you are now and want to change then give it go. its got to be better than carrying on doing what your doing and not really enjoying it.

good luck what ever you decide to do. 🙂

@DaftFader 397453 wrote:

Something I was thinking about a little while ago (alltho to learn kung fu) become budist and join a monastary for a bit. Extream i know .. but not much chance of temptation.

i actually thought about doing this as well a few years ago… thats about as far as i got tho :-/

god can even mean your inner self btw 😉 (so don’t let that whole aspect scare you off if you are not religeous in anyway.)

@smokeitup 397436 wrote:

same old story ennit. thinking of moving out of Brighton and stating a fresh.

could be for the best man. but like others have said, the ket will always find you if you still want to do it, wherever you move to.

so far this year i have been pretty sensible with ketamine (in comparrison to previous years). i have been focusing more on jobs & relationships, (two things that in the past i have fucked up big time because of the amount of K i was doing).

i’ve only recently managed to prove to myself that i can enjoy ket once in a while instead of always thinking about getting more. tollerance.. it certainly is not the drug it used to be!