I’ll be speaking from my personal experiences, and I know that “everyone’s is different” but honestly nearly everyone I have known to have tried it has told me nearly the same things.
Emotional warmth, completely true. I often feel very “loved up”, like everything is amazing and everything will be OK, everyone turns into your best friend. Music becomes like a pathway to another universe, by far one of my favourite things about the drug is listening to my favourite music whilst on it. Touch, somewhat true. You’ll notice that everything sort of becomes really, really nice to touch and everything feels just great.
You can control yourself, to a point. If you turn out and do 5 pills on your first time, you’re most likely not going to know how to control how you act. Even I struggle sometimes, and I’m not what you’d call a new person to the drug. Your biggest giveaway will be the jaw and face muscle relaxation. Your perception of things will change, however. You’re likely to be making bold and confident movements (never violent), physically and through speech. Your scenario with talking to your crush would be fine if you can control it. Honestly, it’s relatively easy, but I prefer to let all of my feelings and thoughts be heard when on it. There is no forced speech however, it’s not as if you’re forced to say anything or let anything out when you’re on it, you can just bottle it all up inside you.
If you’re looking for advice on how much to do, pick up either 2 medium range ecstasy pills or 1 high quality pill (per person), if you can get hold of them, if your preference is tablets. If you’re buying powder / crystal (MDMA), half a gram should set you up fine for first time use, if you’re feeling adventurous try a gram. My first time I took a half gram and a pill, and I was reasonably fucked up. If you do buy crystal however, I advise you to “bomb” it, which is basically wrapping up an amount of MDMA (I like to weigh it in at 0.3g) in a rolling paper and swallowing it. Effects last longer than sniffing and are more intense. Sort of like doing a “purer” ecstasy tablet.
Advice for when on it,
A) Don’t drink too much. It’s a misconception you should down a load of water, but as said above you can actually drown your insides from drinking too much. The common rule is around about a pint of water an hour, perhaps less.
B) You won’t actually feel it for about 25 – 45 minutes. Give it time, don’t risk getting yourself in too deep with your first time. Take your time, there’s no rush.
I don’t know where you are, but where I’m located at in the South East of England, prices for good pills are around £10 a pop and good MDMA comes in at about £30-40 per gram. Roughly speaking that’s about $10-15 a pill and about $40-50 a gram (this comes straight from a currency converter, I don’t know the supply and demand factors in your area, could differ greatly).
Hope this helped.
