Is this Addiction?

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March 18, 2013 at 3:34 am

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The Psyentist

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I’m sure most of you by now are aware that I really like drugs. I’ve smoked weed for 7 years now (pretty much daily) and have been taking ecstasy in both pill and crystal form on and off for 5. I’ve also tried a lot of other stuff but they’re my 2 favourite and most frequently used. Both of which I can say I have been addicted to in the past but that was over 3 years ago.

Last time I found myself caught up in an addicts cycle I was spending about £60 a day to feed my habit which lasted 6 months or so before I retook control of life. Recently though I feel I’ve developed a new kind of addiction, this time I’m not so much craving any particular substance(s) but become possessed by a general desire to escape sobriety.

When I’ve experienced addiction in the past pretty much every waking moment I wasn’t high on MDMA or weed I craved them, and that was the type of high I felt I needed. Now however I can go about my working week with only a few joints no problem, hard drugs may not even cross my mind. But once I reach the weekend I just want to get totalled, but again I don’t seek any particular high just whatever I can get hold of.

My urge to get high though doesn’t surpass rational thinking meaning I don’t take drugs I wouldn’t normally take nor do I buy if I can’t afford. This means I can and will stay away from drugs if need be. The only problem with this is that I seem to experience comedown like symptoms anyway.

A few times recently I’ve reached Sunday night or Monday morning and I become an irritable antisocial gremlin because I haven’t had drugs.

Is this some sort of psychological addiction or do I just like drugs too much?
March 18, 2013 at 4:03 am

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know_hope

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@The Psyentist 533918 wrote:

Is this some sort of psychological addiction

yes, but you’re not the only one >.> … o.c.d for intoxication… welcome to partyvibe, enjoy your stay 🙂
March 18, 2013 at 4:09 am

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The Psyentist

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@know_hope 533928 wrote:

yes, but you’re not the only one >.> … o.c.d for intoxication… welcome to partyvibe, enjoy your stay 🙂

How the fudge do I break that cycle then?

Welcome? Enjoy your stay? You say this as if I’m a new member:crazy_diz
March 18, 2013 at 4:24 am

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If you feel that your consumption is having a negative effect on your life and yet you are unable to stop then it would probably fall into the addiction bracket. It certainly doesn’t sound healthy as a long term lifestyle choice.
March 18, 2013 at 8:26 am

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Mezz

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I been there mate, and yes it’s definitely a psychological addiction, a habit you fall into where daily usage becomes normal and although you can stop without physical withdrawals you dont want to because life seems shit or boring or to stressful without them.

TBH this cycle was only broken for me because all those around me stopped ( Most due to having kids ) and as I got older slowly losing the contacts that give easy access, a life changing event like choosing a partner over drugs or having kids seem to be the best motivator to stop, and stopping without a major event or loss of access to drugs to prompt you must take enormous amounts of will power to make the change.
March 18, 2013 at 12:06 pm

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Deez

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I’m in the same rut I think though I don’t take drugs daily and never really did, but I was smoking weed like 5 days a week not to long ago. I just hate being sober, I find life boring and depressing and there is nothing for me to do other then take drugs really..
March 18, 2013 at 1:33 pm

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Mezz

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@DeezNuts 533991 wrote:

I’m in the same rut I think though I don’t take drugs daily and never really did, but I was smoking weed like 5 days a week not to long ago. I just hate being sober, I find life boring and depressing and there is nothing for me to do other then take drugs really..

Weed is what I used daily too, and even though most consider it the least harmful of recreational drugs ( which it is in most aspects ) when it reaches daily use it makes you lazy and content, the world kinda moves on around you.

MDMA was a weekly pleasure for me, only for Friday nights, but TBH that was only because Ive always worked, Im sure if I had been unemployed that would have become more frequent too.

Only things that limits my use of both now is lack of people to take it with ( most my friends have kids so cant ) and lack of access ( lost touch with most my former suppliers or they stopped dealing ). Certainly wasnt my choice to cut back or stop lol
March 18, 2013 at 1:36 pm

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know_hope

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@The Psyentist 533932 wrote:

How the fudge do I break that cycle then?

you just have to want it enough, but that ‘just’ can be made into quite a big hurdle… i dont think it really matters what your strategy is as long as its something you can stick to… you’re probably not in the minority here on pv 😉
March 18, 2013 at 1:37 pm

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Deez

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@Mezz 534011 wrote:

Weed is what I used daily too, and even though most consider it the least harmful of recreational drugs ( which it is in most aspects ) when it reaches daily use it makes you lazy and content, the world kinda moves on around you.

MDMA was a weekly pleasure for me, only for Friday nights, but TBH that was only because Ive always worked, Im sure if I had been unemployed that would have become more frequent too.

Only things that limits my use of both now is lack of people to take it with ( most my friends have kids so cant ) and lack of access ( lost touch with most my former suppliers or they stopped dealing ). Certainly wasnt my choice to cut back or stop lol

Yup, I agree on that weed point, I became content with being a fuck up because it didn’t matter as I was high, so I don’t smoke it that much anymore.

Meph was my weekly thing, that really fucked me up though, I would of taken it much more often if i’d have had the money. For the first year I did it only with friends, then I slowly started doing just a g by myself every other weekend or so, then it was a g a weekend, then 2, then before I know it i’m banging like 5 gs a weekend and raping the fuck out of my brain.
March 18, 2013 at 1:37 pm

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@The Psyentist 533918 wrote:

I’ve reached Sunday night or Monday morning and I become an irritable antisocial gremlin because I haven’t had drugs. Is this some sort of psychological addiction or do I just like drugs too much?

The sunday night blues, i get them wether or not i’ve had drugs, the beginning of the working week also makes me crabby!
March 18, 2013 at 1:38 pm

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Deez

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@korno 534015 wrote:

The sunday night blues, i get them wether or not i’ve had drugs, the beginning of the working week also makes me crabby!

Yup, Sunday is shit. I quite like Mondays though, but Sundays are the worst.
March 18, 2013 at 1:42 pm

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General Lighting

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@korno 534015 wrote:

The sunday night blues, i get them wether or not i’ve had drugs, the beginning of the working week also makes me crabby!

people who don’t touch drugs at all often get that, and the midweek mood swings. Though I think its a UK problem, as other European nations either seem to have a better work life balance and/or their folk just accept that shit / unpopular jobs have to be done and get on with it (the chap from the Dutch Communications Ministry who spent 30 years busting the pirate stations and then took his retirement and started playing banjo and supporting the local music scene comes to mind as an example of this..)
March 18, 2013 at 1:48 pm

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Mezz

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@DeezNuts 534014 wrote:

Yup, I agree on that weed point, I became content with being a fuck up because it didn’t matter as I was high, so I don’t smoke it that much anymore.

Meph was my weekly thing, that really fucked me up though, I would of taken it much more often if i’d have had the money. For the first year I did it only with friends, then I slowly started doing just a g by myself every other weekend or so, then it was a g a weekend, then 2, then before I know it i’m banging like 5 gs a weekend and raping the fuck out of my brain.

Same here on drone, only discovered it after a several year break from pills, kinda like reliving youth, but from a 1/2 gram each first time with friends flying off our tits, to a year or so later taking up to 3gs on a Friday night even if my mates couldnt & I was alone it kinda got out of hand.

I’d choose MDMA over Drone any day, far less moreish and a much nicer more sociable buzz with easier comedowns ( not whole weekends w/o to recover lol )
March 18, 2013 at 1:53 pm

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Deez

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@Mezz 534023 wrote:

Same here on drone, only discovered it after a several year break from pills, kinda like reliving youth, but from a 1/2 gram each first time with friends flying off our tits, to a year or so later taking up to 3gs on a Friday night even if my mates couldnt & I was alone it kinda got out of hand.

I’d choose MDMA over Drone any day, far less moreish and a much nicer more sociable buzz with easier comedowns ( not whole weekends w/o to recover lol )

Man a G used to do 4 of us from like 6pm til 2 am, all feeling good and good vibes, that lasted a few months then we started proper caining it lol.

I find MDMA to have a much worse comedown personally. There really isn’t that much of a drone comedown as long as you sleep and don’t do massive benders (E.g i’ve never actually gone past 1pm the next day, fuck that wouldn’t even go that long again.) i’m really quite healthy though, have a good diet and exercise a lot and always have done which has saved me from as much damage as I would have had otherwise imo. Also prefer the drone buzz, shame really cause its fucking filth but I love it.
March 18, 2013 at 2:15 pm

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MC G-Tek

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@DeezNuts 534016 wrote:

Yup, Sunday is shit. I quite like Mondays though, but Sundays are the worst.

Nope, not havin’ that mate, sundays are great! It’s a day to just be lazy as hell if you want to be, or go out and do stuff that you didn’t have time for in the rest of the week, sundays rock dude!
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