@Pike Tom Us 435247 wrote:
ive thought about it many, many times… at the end of the day tho there will always be drugs. i need to deal with that issue instead of runing away from it.
you need something else to occupy you in your new place anyway. When I moved from Reading to Ipswich yes it was only a few months before I found dealers, the party scene etc but just that break (and of course growing a bit more mature) made me keep rethinking whether what I was doing was a good idea. And yes I partied for a bit but I noticed a change, how the lifestyle was fucking people up big time, and this made me slowly wind down my involvement in the scene..
I’m not gonna bullshit and say its 100% fun. I still miss parties, I even have dreams about being at them and then I wake up and am gutted that it was “just a dream” but I’ve found other things to occupy myself, and other groups to get involved in doing real practical things towards looking after environment and social change rather than just angry drugged up protesting at “pigs not being nice..”
This should be all you need to make sure you’re safe as poss …
But seriously man, sought it out. You were doing so well. :group_hug
@Pike Tom Us 435247 wrote:
ive thought about it many, many times… at the end of the day tho there will always be drugs. i need to deal with that issue instead of runing away from it.
TBH that just sounds like an excuse … My mate tried to say a similer thing to me when I first tried quitting drinknig seriously. I wouldn’t go out for a while and he was tryingto guilt trip me into coming out saing I’m gonna have to deal with being around alchahol at some point bla bla … I said “No I don’t”.
Avoiding being around alchahol has made it so much easer to deal with quitting it then times i’ve tried quitting when it’s blatently infront of me! If it’s not in front of you then it’s not in the front of your mind as much and you can distract your self easyer.
Get away from it all man you’ll be doing your self a favor, atm it just seems like you’re choosing to make it harder for your self to quit!
It’s not running away; it’s BEING SENSIBLE.
True…it is like that, K got the upper hand now, before you can get back in full control you need to rebuild your mind and that aint easy and probably end in massive defeat if the K is in grabs distance away from you…that said you are right, the drugs will always be around but in the fase of getting clean they are best out of sight…afterwards is another matter and it is not to be dealt with now, your focus should be to stop, end of…and try not to make it harder for yourself with loads of nearby temptation
Yeah I’m not saing lock your self in a cave … you are most likely gonna see some one who does k or hear about it etc. but untill you are strong enough to deal with that avoid it as best you can.
If your asking for I/V technique I’d guess you not ready just yet to want to stop – so I hope when you are – you get the support you need :love:
I think the only people you should listen to about technique are the harm reduction team, assertive out reach team, and stay on the clean needles as you are already doing – and please please dont get complacent! your know it only takes one dirty hit to get infected with all sorts of nasties…..
And the only advice I will offer is if you are making a mess of your hands / arms make sure you are good with hygiene – as they can easily turn into abscesses and get nasty, and infection can mean loss of limb or very very serious conditions such as septecemia – and I’ve seen it – if your injecting a very strong pain killer regularily you may not even feel it til too late.
Stay safe, and make an evaluation of your life and the direction you want to go down as it sounds pretty self destructive at the mo :group_hug :group_hug
yea im definatly on self destruct mode. Its a weird one. On the bright side i havent banged up or sniffed ket in 3 days now. Or had a drink. Got another appointment with the harm reduction service in half hour, which im getting a lift to and from, so there will be no temptation to pop round the corner and score. Will write up how it went when i get back
Nice one man I perpously looked for this thread this morning to see if ther was any updates … you’ve put a smile on my face today, I was feeling a bit groggy when i woke up – so thank you 🙂
keep up the trying man as you’ve gone so far allready so you know it’s in you. 😉
@Kung Fu Fader 435629 wrote:
Nice one man I perpously looked for this thread this morning to see if ther was any updates … you’ve put a smile on my face today, I was feeling a bit groggy when i woke up – so thank you 🙂
keep up the trying man as you’ve gone so far allready so you know it’s in you. 😉
ah wicked. nice to hear ive made someone smile. cheers man
harm reduction appointment went really. a big thank you to my key worker- you dont know how much it means to me being able to spill my guts out to you. and thanks for working overtime for me today. have definatly decided that moving back to my mums is the best thing to do. for now atleast. she came into the meeting for the last 15 mins and had a chat with my worker which helped loads… i think my mum has abit of a better understanding about things now. all the information she was getting was from her drug fucked son.. me.. and i dont think she believed half of it.
So. Decsion made- live at home. take one day at a time. cut down on the drink. try cold turker with the k (which shouldnt be that hard, ive done it before and know i can do it again) Im off to berlin on the 8th of july and making my way to budapest for O.Z.O.R.A in august, so that will be a month ill be out of england for. If i didnt have my tickets booked, i would be going into rehab.
It’s allways good to have something to look forward to in times like this … just don’t forget what you’re trying to achive when you’re out and about having fun abroad. 😉
If you stay in berlin for a week we can meet up…cause I am going to this; MELT! FESTIVAL 2011
@Pike Tom Us 435674 wrote:
ah wicked. nice to hear ive made someone smile. cheers man
harm reduction appointment went really. a big thank you to my key worker- you dont know how much it means to me being able to spill my guts out to you. and thanks for working overtime for me today. have definatly decided that moving back to my mums is the best thing to do. for now atleast. she came into the meeting for the last 15 mins and had a chat with my worker which helped loads… i think my mum has abit of a better understanding about things now. all the information she was getting was from her drug fucked son.. me.. and i dont think she believed half of it.
So. Decsion made- live at home. take one day at a time. cut down on the drink. try cold turker with the k (which shouldnt be that hard, ive done it before and know i can do it again) Im off to berlin on the 8th of july and making my way to budapest for O.Z.O.R.A in august, so that will be a month ill be out of england for. If i didnt have my tickets booked, i would be going into rehab.
nice one mate best of luck with it all! sounds like a wise decision to me
@!sinner69! 435676 wrote:
If you stay in berlin for a week we can meet up…cause I am going to this; MELT! FESTIVAL 2011
sweet ask! yea ill hanging around for a couple of weeks actually for easttek shennanigans. Fuckparade isnt far behind either which i really wanna go to so not sure what im gonna do untill august. know a few people i havent seen in a while so im thinking of just sticking around. would be wicked to meet up with you mate!
you really have to want to stop doing K for your self, like any other addiction i guess. you will be amazed how good it can be when you aint touched that shit for a few months/years. best of luck pal
Well done for being able to open up to your mum about it all and well done Mum for being there for you… Distancing yourself from people who you used to take K with isn’t running away its making life easier for you to stop…
It won’t be easy but you’re taking all the right steps and have something to look forward to.. you’re also very lucky to have a decent key worker..
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