Alright mate, it sounds like youve got yourself into a bit of a state man, but put it this way, if youve beaten ket before you can do it again coz its one of the hardest things ive ever tried to do and i still havent successfully managed it. I cant suggest anything to you in regards to IVing but one thing I can tell you is you may have saved a fellow user from trying it. I have been umming and arring about IMing for the 1st time, as my bladder an that is so fucked from sniffing I read somewhere it doesnt pass through those systems when you use pins, I moved 200 miles away from the places an people i was using with and it hasnt helped at all my addiction followed me here and ive now regained my intense interest in knowing what that ‘ultimate hit’ would be like (without using skag) but after reading your post it has made me think again. i need to remind myself on a regular basis how awful my life could be if I went down that road but im sure you know as well as i do that the ketamine demon almost always wins. and i know exactly what you mean about ‘one true love’ i keep thinking my life is even harder now i havent got my proverbial blanket to numb the bullshit.. BUT… its all an illusion mate. its not real happiness.. real happiness is getting excited about a new job and being able to go out and buy clothes and pay rent on your own place instead of keeping an addiction rolling. i, like you, had a litres-a-week habit only able to continue if i made it my entire lifestyle having to stay in my flat and sell coz i could barely move coz of the pain, its absolutly no way to live. get yourself back into rehab and away from this guy who im sure is the nicest person ever but is your trigger. choose life my sweet. good luck.
