hi everyone thanks for your replys… i missed lots of points of that last msg as my dad was making a suspicious amount of brews..lol
yeah sorry i am under a urology specialist i have been for3 n abit yrs i have never mentioned my dirty dark secret to him i have to be honest 2 reasons 1-after 6 months use i did go to see a doctor at my surgery i had never seen him before come to think of it nor have i again… but i had a very long convo with him cuz i was starting to miss work and taking bout 7 to 14 grams ina 24hr period depending on if i fall asleep ect an he didnt really say much if anything and he certainly never mentioned my servre bladder condiotion…. 2-id actually had a horrific bladder condition long before which i have to say really isnt so diffrent….. while im dosed to the eyeballs on pain drugs… ** i told that doctor about the ket because i got horrific gastric pain which was the main reason for me missin work askin is it cuz of that..!?! if you get what i mean… anyway to the point he said he doubts it very much heres some ommeprole its your meds burning your stomach… after takin them for 6/7 wks the pain went and ive had one everyday since its never come back………..
now heres where you’s rip me….lol had i not seen that girl on jeremy kyle i dont think i would have ever let myself believe the k which is helping me out of pain awareness is in effect magnifyin the cause if that makes any sense
though my urologist without knowing i take drugs and being puddled by my case has called medical confrences a good while back… no clue
he told me 6 months ago my bladder at its best hold 50ml of fluid and the walls are pretty much as thick as what you’d expect a normal bladders fluid capacity to be…
im to go for an operation to paralyse my bladder to try get it to stretch i guess without pain…??!!?? duno but that probably wont go ahead now……………………..
you see after i left my dads on thurs i went home to make a long story short knocked my tub of k all over the floor with my ashtray the guy had no more so i rescued what i could which was nothing if not discusting an i decided id had enough proceeded to gather every tablet i could find includin my dogs medication, swallow handfuls with mouthwash i assume i past out as when i woke at half 9 in the morning i was quite distraught to find myself face down in the hall an the trail of sick from me to the lounge full of undigested tablets…..my only damage rippd jeans n carpet burns…
getting to the point i went to see my doctor asked for a repeat script he startd to proceed till he noticed id only had 3 months worth afew days before an started quizzin me thinkin fast i said id bin away n forgot to bring em back… so he startd printin them off an i was thinkin my fuckin god look at the fuckin state of me i look like shit i can hardly walk in sat huddled n rattlin even in my own head i can clearly hear im slurrin an speakin stupid an gurnin an i just had amajor breakdown…told him everything and begged him to help me
asa result ive been referred to a psychiatrist….??!!?
given a number to contact if i want to a drug place thats engaged 24hrs a day..
on a plus side he’s contacted all the specialists im under to bring them up to speed, reduced me to weekly scripts though i have to be honest im replacin my perscribed meds ive been over medicatin to control my pain with vast amounts of over counter shit, vodka n sleepers….but my pain clinic appointment is bein brought forward thank fuck…
i rang my dad from the docs ive moved home given my money n cards n shit to my dad so been hybernatin pretty much sleepin since ive been here… gettin sleepy again now so i’ll sign out…
just wanted to say thanks… i’ll have to come on when i sort my life out.. let everyone know the lasting damage takecare care of yourself ;o)
