Ah ok, I’ve given my answers.
‘Do you still take drugs despite negative effects on your mental health?‘
This one is complicated for me. Pills do involve a harsh comedown at times, but I think you need to decide if the high is worth the low. For me, it always has been. I can reason it out by confirming that it’s a low that has come from the drug and is physiological, rather than depression from some deeper, less fixable place. I ride it out by reminding myself of this fact. I know a lot of people who’ve had to stop taking pills after going to excess with them and experiencing an incredibly brutal ‘culminative’ comedown that felt like death. I only ever do one per rave and don’t do it every weekend, to avoid this potential issue. I love beans so much – I don’t want to mess them up for myself by treating them like sweets. A friend of mine who gave pills up because they were too detrimental to his health and he found himself having to do 6-8 per rave is now into NOS and Ket. Although they have less consequences in terms of mental health issues for him, the highs don’t last long, they rinse his wallet and he always wants to go home by about 06:30. Not great.
