@barrettone 529896 wrote:
The key to what mate?
To a good experience maybe?
I’m not sure I think trying to engineer a comfortable situation can work/make a really real difference if you’re prone to flaking on acid. I’ve had a few amazing experiences camping with my best friend in the middle of absolutely fucking nowhere. But nothing I or anyone’s done has stopped me from flaking in every other situation. Then again I’m several flavours of medically recognised fruitcake, so what’s true for me isn’t necessarily true for anyone but me.
Maybe it comes down to whether it’s a situation where you can allow yourself to not care how weirdly abstract your senses become, and how utterly at the mercy of them you are.
If you can’t really tell anyone that when you looked at the sky just now, it kind of felt like you were looking at the waves from beneath the ocean, and that even though you’re clearly not somewhere under the sea, you can’t really shake the feeling that you are, and that even though the air on the one hand feels perfectly normal, on the other it kind of feels like it’s slowing everyone’s movements just as if you were under water, and even though the light isn’t filtering through waves and making crawling lines of shadows and hilights across everything, it still kind of looks like it is… That’s when I start flaking. Or actually, I start long before that, when my senses are just starting to get a little bit strange. And I usually have to flee somewhere because I feel like everyone I know would rather I fucked off,and everyone I don’t are looking at me as if I’ve got six legs, two heads & I’ve just scarfed down someone’s pet rat with the appetite of a starving monster or something (figuratively I mean, not literally).
But on a rare few occasions that same “everything’s getting increasingly abstract” – the ones alone with my best friend in the middle of nowhere – instead feels cool and interesting and more like the kind of fantasy you want to have instead of the kind of total alienation you can’t escape however badly you want to (when I get panicky & start doing stupidly self destructive shit it’s definitely not nothing that makes me flake, it’s the inability to feel like/how I normally feel).
