Hey everyone, I’m an American–living in Texas. I’ve been without a job for 4 years now, but because I have a hearing disability, in the state of Texas that allows me to have a tuition waiver, so I go to college full-time.
I have not seen a family doctor in 4 years now, not since I had my last job and my health insurance. I have back pain and knee pain–especially my right knee is what gives me a lot of grief. I cannot afford to go to the doctor, and even if I did–the doctors around here are stingy as fuck about giving adequate painkillers. They normally just prescribe some naproxen and maybe a few tramadols.
Besides that, I have clinical depression. I have been on effexor xr, celexal, lexapro, paxil, prozac with amblify–none of them touch my depression. This is another reason why I am interested in getting some kind of opiate painkiller. Stuff like vicodin–or even just tramadol–boost my mood enough that makes me want to be like a normal person, to interact with others and be social, to work on hobbies and other activities, to have energy to get things done. Without it, I feel withdrawn and irritable and moody, want to be left alone, do not care about others or what they try to talk to me about, do not care about my beloved hobbies or even to go for my daily walks (which I used to enjoy immensely).
I was wondering if anyone else had any suggestions around this or about this? How does one form ‘connections’ for these sorts of drugs? I’m not socially inclined to I have never had a street ‘access’ to certain drugs. To me, going about that way would be cheaper and more worthwhile (i.e., not wasting money to see a doctor that would not even be willing to prescribe anything due to fear of DEA investigation, or some gay shit like that).
Anyway, any help and honest opinions would be deeply appreciated :bounce_m:
