ok im posting this again, its geting lost:
“U PROBABLY SKIPPED TO LAST POST..BASICALLY IM DOING A REPORT LATER…I DUNO WHY I DID IT LIKE THIS LOL..ANYWAY..IM GONA START EDITING THIS NOW….DONT BE FOOLED..IF U DIDNT READ THE LAST 10 PAGES THEN U WONT KNOW HOW FUCKING AMAZING IT WAS
edit 4.29..still visuals..still music on…not too loud..bit cold…just stairing at visuals in windows media player. gona try play game again
4.31 . sound quality isnt as good anymore..euyes hurting a bit cuz i have to keep straining them and closing 1 eye just to type anything on phone and keyboard.,.feels like i need glasses to see lool
4.32 – ok i just posted but i thought id say..my love for people is no longer here as much and voodoo i dont wanna know u anymore lol!
4.37 – game is less fun.. dont reallty wanna play it that much now..turned music down even more..feeling more cold..more teeth grinding..less love…apoligizing to people lol
4.41 – oh wow now i can actaully kill bots.
4.47 – still musiuc, getting more boredish…still feeling ok..regretting some s tuff i did. still cant see propeerluy lol..feeling alert..moving head back and forward from monitor to monitor. and just REMEBERED I MISSED LAST NIGHTS EPISODE OF BIG BROTHER
4.50 – getting more picky about songs..listened to michael jackson before which i hate..but now i dont wanna
4.53 – cant seem stay on one thing at once..have to post here, play game and go on phone..geting distracted easily i think.
5.00 – more bored now, visuals still here..wonder when their gona go….still listening to music on half volume…still feel alert a bit…and dreading work later..still have a bit of a need to talk to people but people keep ignoring me on net..and now my mates aint replying lol
5.06 – only been 6 mins since last edit? seems longer but i am getting kinda bored..teeth grinding still..still txting few people asking why they aint replying or speaking to me..but also explaining waht happened.bit cold….not fully naked now lol…didnt care typing that beofre,,but now the thought oif typing that seems wierd..obviouslky as u can see my visuals are stuill fucked
5.09 – wanna go sleep cuz of work later..but know i wont be able to..feel tired but not the type of tired that needs sleep or something lol…would be better if i didnt have work..would have done 2 pills to extend it probably…
5.11 – had a real feeling to speak to people before..now i dont wanna by voice..only text
5.13 – just went for a piss..ive had 2 bottles of water and thast the only piss i remember having..why is that? scientists plz..usually i would be pissing loads after 2 bottles of water…before my full report..anybody doing this make sure u have loads of fucking water esepcailly in club
5.15 .still music and moving on seat..maybe just so time goes faster? stil;l enjyoing it a BIT..how im feeling now is still better compared to the PEAK on other legal drugs ( i tried mdai and dmc)
5.22. ok time is going slow or fast. cant work it out..it seems like i did that last edit ages ago..so does that mean time went fast or slow…stuill got music on..still got visuals and hard to see PC screen and phone…looking at other stuff is ok thou
5.29 -7 mins since last EDIT WTF? IS THIS BUGGED…anyway im feeling kinda annoyed my friends aint replying to texts..still listening to music and thinking about how bad work is gona be…hope my pupils go normal and i can see properely
5.43 . just listening to music…refreshing this thread all time..switching between tabs lots…looking at media plauyer visuals…eyes are getting MUCH better now…i can type on phone better and stuff
5.47 – kinda wanna listen to diff type of music now instead of clubbing/dance songs…listening to dont stop beliving..good song but i didnt wanna listen to it before..
5.50, not feeling horny anymore ..stopped touching myself lol..well i stopped that hours ago but ive only just remembered
5.55 . was gona post now but got distracted and forgot what to say…maybe cuz im tired or maybe a side effect…
6.02., listening to music..talking to voodoo on msn about our fun time even thou i dont love him as much as i did…i still feel bit thitsty and keep licking my lips
6.06 ; keep grinding teeth and licking lips
6.12 – starting to feel more normal..visuals almost gone…still listening to music in earphones but not as loud..still grinding teeth and licking lips..work in 2 hours..no point even trying to sleep i dont think
6.20 – still listening to music,, not as good as before..still grinding teeth and spamming voodoo on msn cuz he wont talk..and still texting my mates hoping for a reply lol..keep refreshing this thread too..duno why cuz nobody is online..my love for people has greatly decreased and ive been texting saying “i dont love u really” and stuff…lots of things ill regret lol
6.26 – getting more picky on songs..getting bored of same ones…nobody is talking..all fun seems to be over…would like to sleep but cant..cuz i still feel a bit happy..lol..but thinking about work makes me not happy..so its mixed
6.30 . back and neck hurting a bit..cuz of dancing and not sitting in very good position on pc..been here like 7 hours afterall…dont think their hurting cuz of the drug..just cuz ive been sitting like a retard (learning right forward into screen)
6.35 – WANT TO FUCKING SLEEP FOR WORK..IF I DIDNT HAVE WORK I WOULDNT CARE..BUT THINKING ABOUT WORK MAKES ME WANT TO SLEEP SO ITS EASIER…i know i cant sleep so no point..work in 2 hours..
6.38 – just some random thought . looking forward to doing report and listening back at all my phone calls lol..and videos…gona be a while thou..after work ill proly go to bed..depending on how i feel..still grinding teeth and listening to music..duno why im still listening to music lol
6.41- for some reason i wanna keep speaking to voodoo even thou i lost my love for him..and its annoying me that he aint replyimng…annoying me that my friends aint replying too…maybe im just bored i duno anymore lol…visuals are going more and more..still licking lips and teeth grinding..duno if i can be arssed editing this more cuz im saying the same shit over and over
6.47 – ok still listening to music and moving in seat a bit…i think i would feel MUCH better if i know i didnt have work..so its a kind of an unfair analysis of my comedown..cuz i feel like shit everyday when i go to work..so i duno if i feel bad cuz im going to work or cuz of the drug lol…will see soon proly
6.55 – still texting my friend, or maybe ex friend now lol..said “ur being a fag now, i dont need u for goin out, my new best friend doesnt betray me or let me down and is always here when i need it. i go clubbing alone”
6.57 – still ok but seems to be dragging a bit…if i was in club id probably be having fun..but getting bored on my own like this..lasted like 7 hours anyway…
7.06 , can see much better now.still teeth grinding, licking lips…still thinkin about work..would be happy if i didnt have work..nm…duno how many more times im gona edit now.. dont feel in the mood to do it..still listeniong to music..duno why..maybe i want time to go faster or something?
7.18. just listening to music and kinda waiting to go work to get it done with..fucking work ruined my night lol..next time ill do it on a day off and probably wont even have a comedown…im only grinding teeth and lips …i dont feel like really depressed or anything..or maybe i will later..cu soon
7.22. thinking about all the apoligising i gota do lol..but was fucking worth it..wouldnt do any of that on drink
7.50 – shower and brushed teeth done.. kept moving hips side to side when brushing teeth and laughing and smiling about when i think of the night i had.also singing songs in my head lol…so no comedown yet..im sure it will come lol
7.55 . leaving in 5 min..feeling a bit hot but maybe cuz i just had shower…opened window and put fans back on…still happy lol…but sad about work..if i was at home id still be happy … feel alert and think id be fast at my job lol..but im forgetting thigns and making mistakes..
7.59 – decided to take my deodrant. feel like im sweating a bit more and getting bit hotter…proly cuz i cant stop swaying from side to side lol and singing in head..
8.00 ok seriously leaving now, lucky i dont have to drive, wouldnt feel safe to lol…decided to put on one last song before i leave..lol
(duno what time this happened, just adding it to notes so i remember…”kept touching dog on its back..felt funny touching her on back…dog left room cuz i was going bit crazy lol..shes back now and sleeping on bed, but i dont feel like tocuhing her back now”
GLAD I DID A VIDEO OF MYSELF AND RECORDED ALL MY PHONE CALLS. FOR THOES OF U THAT CANT BE ARSSED READING 13 PAGES WHICH IS PROBABLY EVERYBODY ..ILL BE DOING A PROPER REPORT TOMOZ …GOTA READ BACK THROUGH 13 PAGES OF SHIT…will post my comedown also
if u did decide to read it..u just witnessed a live high with a fellow member on BENZO!…”
