@stayawayfromafrica 523940 wrote:
Dude i feel ya,i had an 8 yr habit of i.v heroin addiction,3 ods.(2 were from dope mixxed with fentanyl),n about 8 rehabs.i’ve always been in a re lationship.ive lied countless times to fam,freindsgf,but i always told my gfs that dope came first.in the end i feel terrible cuz before me these girls were beautiful young ladies.n i turned them in to me.eventually i went to prison.thats when it happened for me.though still on buph i got my family back.its a motherfucker.i was locked up For 2 yrs.been out 4.so i havent stuck myself For six yrs.it gets easier.but bud it starts with truth.truth to yourself.n than things have a funny way of getting better as long as u get honest.n if ur partner leaves u in the scheme of life,ull find another,but u will find no peace until u get completly honest.
@Sychonaut 523941 wrote:
Get to a doctor and some addiction clinics. Thats the first step to stopping. Being around people who also want to better their lives by quiting will boost your willpower and you wont have to go through it alone.
^^Very good bit’s of advise there.
To chip in I’d say along with being honest with your self you have to keep reminding your self why you need/want to quit every time you are craving as I know how easy it can be to forget the bad feelings that follow taking a substance you used to be physically addicted to (and then the point you run out/stop again). Not even mentioning the fucked up things that you can do whilst addicted and under the influence/craving for something, it’s very easy to sweep them reasons under a rug in your mind and lie to your self and tell your self it’s for some strange reason not going to be exactly the same as always.
I’d not remind your self to the point of beating your self up about it, but just try and work some kind of mechanism into your thought process by repetition that stops you after you’ve thought about taking the drug and before you actually go and take it (Repetition makes things “sink in” a lot better). Maybe something like making a list of all the reasons you want to quit, and with them put a positive result that will come from you succeeding in not taking the substance again (do this for each and every reason) and then every time you feel weak or feel like you’re going to slip, go through the list and read it out to your self aloud and with confidence/pride. It might not help straight away, then again it might, but hopefully over time you will begin to have the thoughts on paper sink into your subconscious and this may somewhat help defuse the mechanism that makes you want to go and get on it again as every time you think about taking H your mind hopefully will already be trained to recognize it as a bad idea on a subconscious level and this will be a lot more effective then just having to consciously tell your self no, as it will be from the bit of your mind before it hits the conscious decision making process. It’s still probably a good idea to consciously stop your self as well as this though.
