sounds like i might need to lay off them for a little while, the problem im finding is i only work 4 hours a day and im done by midday, i used to work 12 hour night shifts and sleep in digs for 2 weeks at a time, i never had alot of time to take drugs, normally i would have a j and a line of k to get me to bed. then the company went shit and i lost my job and just took alot of drugs to kill the time. that was a year ago and ive still not got out of this rut im in. all my friends take drugs and trying to stop when 2 of your best mates grow bud and sell everything and anything. like last night i took this girl out we went for a curry then went pub and came back to my yard, everything was going well, we were having a good old dance to some techno and it was pretty obvious where it was going. but as fucking usual my mate walk through from their part of the house the hummin smell of his grow wafts straight into the room he then proceeded to sit on the sofa opposite us chomp down a few vals have a blip of k then smoke a bowl of dmt and sat there trying to make conversation with me about the antics the night before but that only happened for about a minute before he just sat there trippin the fuck out and freaked this girl out. needless to say the girl wants fuck all to do with me because of my idiotic waste cadet mate (she to thinks i am exactly the same), i love him to bits and he is a awsome house mate but if i keep hanging around with him and the rest im just going to end up in the same position as them (so slow and at times border line retarded). they cant get a job because no one will hire them so all they can do is shift substances. wht do you recon i should do? try chill with them less so i feel less tempted to get messy or should i try and use self will but from past experiences this never works….
