I started by taking in acid in 1985, I was 13,From that night on life was different,it changed the way i viewed my life for ever.Im related to some travellers so fell into the acid scene easy!! the drugs were superb everything from opium,speed,weed,coke and of course top quality acid and early MDMA [that worked!!] ,at the time they were the main suppliers of most things.As acid house took of big time I stayed away for weeks on end partying and living absolutely free,It was an amazing time that may never be repeated,I attended all the famous free partys and hundreds of others,I dont deny I had an amazing time for most of it and the sights I saw and experienced will stay with me for ever.
Over the years though the quality of drugs slowly fell,apart from the weed which as we all know took of on a large scale,so I ended up dealing it amongst friends all over the country.By 2001-02 though life had took another turn and Id met someone who saw me for the real me and not some national drug merchant,although the money was good,the drugs had taken theyre toll on my mind and I began to find it impossible coping with day to day life let alone the strains of a relationship,everything was cool lets ave a smoke yeah? !! at this point I decided I could not carry on like this,It was simple I either carried on as was or cut the whole scene,friends,family out of my life.It was f***** hard and I spent months on end not sleeping staring at my phone knowing calmness and being chilled was at the other end.
The next 12 mths started hard but got slowly easier and I began to realise what a state I was in,real life was tough Id not learnt that in my teens and 20’s all those life experiences that passed me by whilst tripped out for 5 days at a time caught up with me and I began to realise what my drug life had done to me,all the times id pulled back from situations to hide in a deep fog of speed and pills softened with lb’s of green.
Its only now some 8 years since I moved on that I can honestly see what the effects the different drugs had on me and the way they controlled my life.
Id never say not to try something that would be hypocritical,but dont do it because everyone else is,dont assume the quality is there because your friends are rich,they are exactly!!! the type of people we used to rip of with the crap.If your paranoid in any way id say leave it alone and get pissed instead,Ive seen first time people lose the plot completely for good,one of which killed himself 2mths later.The old saying that you would see on very early flyers and posters was ” only for the headstrong ” as you had to be to get properly shit faced and hold onto to reality on the rough on end of tripled drop acid and pills
Take it easy,make up your own mind,dont take anything you dont want to,most of the great conversations you have when coked up are bullshit anyway,the love you feel when pilled up isnt real and over time gets less and less as your brain frys slowly inside,the person you have to live with is the one you see in the mirror every morning and if you dont like that person then drugs wont sort it out itll hide you away from the truth.
I still have the acid house view of life,nature,people and the world only now I make my own smileys!!
Be safe,take care and have respect.
