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Hi – I wondered if someone could tell me their opinion on what happens to me when i take speed and/or an explanation for it. It usually starts once I’ve been up for at least 24 hours and usually starts after I have missed 2 nights of sleep. What happens is I start talking to myself and sometimes making humming noises. I dont really have any control over it whatsover. It is really hard to stop and when it does stop it’s not long before it happens again. As time passes it seems to get louder and more aggressive and I end up having to shout at myself, telling myself to “shut the f**k up” usually. Their is usually quite a lot of swearing in what I say usually.

When I start to get tired and go to bed as soon as my head hits the pillow I seem to go into these kind of daydreams but I am still awake and before I know it I am shouting and swearing really loud. If there is someone in the room with me it doesn’t happen. It just seems to be when I am on my own. When I am in bad this is usaully accompanied by me being extremely restless, tossing and turning and moving my legs and arms about. i also get really itchy and end up scratching my skin a lot. Again, when I try to control it it goes away for a little while then before I know it it starts again. I also get cramps in my feet. The shouting just gets louder and louder and it really annoys my boyfriend. Usually because he is trying to sleep aswell and also because it’s not normal basically.

I don’t really know if the following information is relevant but I am on anti-depressants and a low dose of anti psychotics. I was admitted to a mental hospital 4 years ago when I had a really bad psychotic episode caused by months of taking base all day, every day. I was hallucinating quite badly, hearing lots of voices and also completely lost touch with reality for a while. It was really scary. They put me on anti psychotics and I dischared myself from there after 3 weeks. I was on 4 anti psychotics a day back then now i only take one. Once I got out of the hospital I had another 7 or 8 psychotic episodes over the next few years. Basically every time I took speed I would have another episode, hearing voices and hallucinating a bit.

My boyfriend will not let me take speed now after what it did to me but I have been getting it from someone he does not know behind his nback just about every weekend. I haven’t had a psychotic episode for years and I don’t hear voices anymore.

I have been up Friday and Saturday night and for the last few hours I have been talking to myself. This got worse and worse till i found myself shouting at the top of my voice. I’m finding it really hard to control and know when I go to bed I will start dreaming and shouting again.

Has anyone ever hear of this or does anyone have an explanation for it. Is it just basically taking more than I can handle and overdoing it or is it something else? When I have speed I sometimes overdo it because I dont know when to stop and will usually take it and stay up till the bag is empty or whatever. At forst it just happened now and then but now it seems to be all the time. Appart from being a nightmare for me it is ruining me and my boyfriends relationship because he has to put up with it every weekend just about.

Thanks for reading and I hope someone will give me some feedback on this.

Thanks again

Sarah. 😥

@srhkitty 373487 wrote:

Hi – I wondered if someone could tell me their opinion on what happens to me when i take speed and/or an explanation for it…

I can relate to some of what you describe, particularly the fidgety half-asleep daydream things combined with crawling skin. For me these are usually accompanied by two or more voices inside my head that are all talking total bollocks/repeating mindless thought loops over and over, and occasional auditory hallucinations (actually hearing voices that appear to be outside of my head).

I usually got these episodes after a heavy weekend. I don’t think any one drug was causing it (I’m not a heavy user by any means, I maybe did mdma once a month if that), but a combination of drinking, drugs and lack of sleep was just a bit more than my mind could take. I sometimes got this just from drinking for a few nights in a row with no drugs involved.

I’ve not had this problem for over a year now though. I very rarely smoke weed now (which I think was a big factor), given up on pills cos they’re crap, can’t buy mdma even if I wanted to, and generally don’t have big sessions any more (nowadays no matter what drugs I take I tend to crash out by 6am and go to bed, whereas a few years back I could stay up all night and go out again the next evening).

I think it’s obvious to yourself and anyone else reading your post that you need to knock the amfet on the head. If you are the type of person who is susceptible to psychotic episodes speed is particularly bad for you. I’m no doctor either but a combination of anti-psychotics and speed seems like a recipe for trouble. The good news is that drug-related psychosis tends to disappear after a week or so of not doing drugs and you should make a full recovery.

So to answer your question I reckon it’s a combination of the two; yes, you are taking more drugs than you can handle, and also, like me, you’re just one of those unlucky people who don’t really have the right mind for taking drugs (which means that you have to be more careful than most).

i think u should tell ur bf you have done it, you need some support and someone to help u stop.

watch the film ‘Requiem for a dream’ if you haven’t already, would be quite a good help to stop.

wot is the ingredients 4 phet and where can i buy them?

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