its like anything really – everything in moderation. if you sit about blazing and do fuck all else then obviously the rest of your life is gonna suffer. i dont think you can blame the weed, as you made the choice to smoke it as much as you did, your choice not to balance it with other aspects of your life.
i was laid low by depression a year back, couldnt leave the house etc, and yes i was smoking weed, and no it didnt help, but ultimately it was my attitude to society and my perspective on life that got me down. sitting about all day getting out of my mind was bound to screw me up, it would have been a fuck of a lot worse if it was booze instead of weed tho, i doubt i’d be here today. i spose the question is did weed make you down or did you smoke weed cos you were down? i can trace back my over-use of weed to splitting up with my girlfriend when i was 16 and spending 2 weeks in a darkened room blazing away as a releif from the pain. so i think tha for me, the weed was used as a crutch which seemed to work, but was ultimately jusy helping me avoid the issue.
now i still smoke weed, but only after 6 o’clock in the week, and at weekends, i hold down three interesting jobs, am a fully integrated member of society, and am totally happy and self-motivated.
basically its easy to scapegoat everything wrong with your life onto weed, but at the end of the day its the lifestyle as well as the herb. i would reccommend taking a break of a month or two to release your grip on weed as a crutch, and then go back to it if you want to.
i would reccommend a break whole-heartedly. the perspective you get from sobiety, plus the feeling that weed is not yoruy master, you are its, plus the way your dreams get crazy for a few eeeks after you stop blazing, etc etc, make it a great experience.
good luck to anyone feeling in the grip on the ganj, heres to a bright new day. :group_hug
