Yeah, i know what you mean about it not being addictive in the sense of there is no real withdrawal when you stop caning it, but having spent twelve months when I would cane it from friday to sunday without fail, and pos mid-week as well, i know for a fact that i felt at the time like I couldn’t do without it. This was in part as I have had a psychological dependance on stimulants for about 8 years on and off (at that stage) and had managed to completely quit the lot in favour of MD and as a result it replaced the coke, speed and pills in my mindset and became something i felt like I could not live without and something that i always had to have access to large quantities of to feel able to cope – in this sense therefore I would describe it as a psychological addiction. End of the day cocaine has no real withdrawal on it either when you quit the stuff, but noone would say that isn’t addictive. Cocaine’s grip on the mind is graeter, but i believe both are still psychological addictions – just one is more extreme. I know when I quit hitting the coke so hard in 2001 i found i had no real withdrawal ONCE I HAD GOT MY MINDSET RIGHT. However, until that point I felt i relied on the coke and was using around 4-5 days a week and spending twice what i earnt on the stuff, at least.
Having said all this though, i am in no way comparing these drugs and the level of addiction experienced on them to that which physically addictive substances cause, as when there is an actual physical withdrawal to conquer as well as a mindset to get your head round then it is obviously
immeasurably more serious a problem.
As for the paranoia and depression stuff, yeah I think your dead right that it comes down to your state of mind in itself – i think any drug related mental illness is often down to a predeliction to the illness that is present in the brain anyway. Again though it largely depends to what extent this is true on the drug involved, but certainly in the case of MD its true ime.
As for sorting out skeletons then E helped to get started on that path, but acid and ketamine are the ones that did that for me!
